What's the essence of living? What's the purpose of hardships? What's the sense of relationships? Living in a fucked up society is indeed misery. You tend to always wonder of "Why do I even get to live if it's only equivalent to suffering itself?" You won't get the purpose of living if it always serves you the worst dishes it was able to give, the taste of negativity the flavor it has. Living requires a lot of courage as living in a world as fucked up as this, is only for those brave enough to face the cruel reality. What's the essence of living? I wonder, too. We are meant to experience these things that we are now going through. They said that we are lucky enough to see the world, to know the existence of living things. However, how about those who didn't ask for this? We didn't ask to be able to breathe, as being alive means death will always awaits at your doorstep. I always wonder, what comes after dying? Which always left me drowning in a sea of thoughts. There are times that we can't escape those damnable experiences that we have stumbled upon. Challenges after challenges. Hardships after hardships. It has never failed us. It always slipped out of nowhere everytime we think that things are now going smoothly. Leaving a bump at paths we thought are going even. "Why do it always has to ruin things?" In midst of suffering, we always tend to think that way. Despite of having a constant hardships in our life, there's still this certain tiny place within our fragile heart that is somehow feeling appreciative, as it taught us lessons that we need to learn. Lessons that we need to acknowledge and put into actions, for us to grow and become more wise in terms of dealing in life. Nevertheless, we can't deny that all we have to do was to stand up on our own. Have the courage and be bold enough to overcome the struggles that we are facing, as after those depressing episodes, comes the fruits of our own labor and patience. People come and people go but what about those who chose to stay? A lot of people tend to suddenly pop onto our life yet there's just few of them who chose to remain. Allowing every strangers to come into, holding their cliché reasons of they want to know the deepest of us. However, ever wonder of "Is it really just that?一there must be more reason一then, what about their intention?" Well, we don't know for sure. Perhaps, they want to settle in our life? Perhaps, they will served as a lesson for us. We don't know how to address the feeling of meeting someome new yet we are sure that it was overwhelming. Meeting strangers that eventually get to see the best of us, the worst of us, and sometimes decode the mystery of us. Stranger who eventually become an important individual in our life. A relationship that suddenly bloomed out of nowhere. It was fulfilling and eye-opening. Sometimes, they come as an instrument to bring laughter in our grieving life. They come as a missing piece to complete us. In mysterious manner, they give us the opportunity to see how colorful life can be. There are times that we are left with no choice but to watch ourselves starving in pleasure, as life itself do not always serve us the dishes that we are craving for. It displays the menu yet we don't hold the ability to choose which one to take. Living holds a bunch of taste; sweet and sour, bland and bitter. Living is a bittersweet blessing; alluring yet comes the responsibilities and consequences. Despite of that, we are still looking forward for the time that it will finally serve us the best dishes it was able to give. Yes, there's always a calm after the storm, there's always a rainbow after the rain, there's always a morning after the night, and there's always a beginning after the end. However, what is our purpose? What is mine? What is yours?一Time will tell and it'll eventually unfolds.
