Kris Angel

Chapter13

A/N: Well, here is another lovely chapter. Hope you all are enjoying this story.  As always thank you for reading. 

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Chapter 13

Kris's POV

It's been todays since that night. Chri hasn't touched me or even tried to do anything. I looked down at my book when Ghost hopped into my bunk and said, "Just a few more months and then back home. You okay Angel. You haven't been talking lately."

I knew he was right. I haven't been talking much. Chris has been avoiding me and no one else wants to talk with me. I looked at Ghost and smiled and said, "I'm sorry. I'm just thinking if this was a good idea. I love you and Kylie. But maybe I should have just stayed at home and risk the chance that they would show it."

Ghost face turned piss and he said, "Kris Angel Terrell you just did not say that you want to stay at home all alone."

I knew he would get upset. After all he and Kylie pretty much knew my secrets expect for the HU guys. I looked at Ghost and said, "I'm being serious right now. I could have just stayed home, and I don't know. Not be the one to start an argument within another band. Bad enough that J3t isn't talking to me anymore even though most of that is my fault like everything else in myself."

Ghost held me as the tears have run down my face. That's what I've been doing lately is crying when everyone is asleep. I'm up when everyone else is asleep and I just write. The bus came to a stop and Kylie walked into the bunk area and looked at me and said, "Why is there a taxi out here waiting for you?"

I climbed over Ghost and got out of the bunk. I picked up my bag and said, "Charlie is in town. I needed to talk to him. I don't know if I'll be back before we got to set up. I'll try to be."

I grabbed my purse and I felt eyes on me. Ghost jumped down and hugged me and said, "What mall are you going to?"

I smiled and said, "I texted you and Kylie to name of the mall. I just need time away from you guys and need to spend time with my brother before he heads over seas. I know you all are going overseas during the seconded half of this tour. As for me, nope. I'll be staying home and waiting for you two to come back."

"Charlie." I yelled when I saw him. He and Danny turned and looked at me and ran over to hug me. I smiled and hugged them both. I missed them. But I also liked being with motionless and at the same time I wanted a break from being around both bands.

"Baby girl I missed you." Said Danny.

"Fuck off Danny she's, my sister." Yell Charlie.

We all laughed and walked around. We talked about everything. We ended up walking into hot topic. It was nice and I found some MIW earrings and a necklace. Danny came over and put his arms around me and said, "How's it is going?"

"Oh, you know. Same old same old. Nothing new." I told him.

I paid for my things and walked out to wait for Charlie. Danny looked at me and said, "Right. So, it doesn't have anything to do with a certain NYD bandmember?"

I glared at him and said, "Leave it alone. Look I don't want to talk about it. I just wanted a day to talk with Charlie. But it seems that'll never happen."

Danny grew quiet and I looked away from him. The mall was packed today. I saw a few fans of MIW and other bands as well as HU fans. Everyone knew who I was, but no one really knew me deep down.

"Kris what's going-" Danny started to say.

I shook my head and said, "This whole thing was a mistake. I need to go."

I walked away from him. He didn't try to stop me. I walked away and found a table to sit down at. I just put my head down and hid my face and let the tears fall. I hate crying in public. I hated crying period. I pulled out my phone and saw Kylie and Ghost texting me, but I ignored them.

I got up and went to a bookstore and sat down at the cafe. I put my headphones in and turned on my laptop and started to write. I must have been lost in writing because when I looked up, I saw Charlie sitting there. He looked at me and smiled. I knew what he was trying to do. I knew that Danny put him up to it.

I put my headphones away and closed my laptop and waited for him to start talking. He sighed and said, "I haven't been the best big brother, have I?"

"No, you haven't. I get that you have a band. I understand that's your dream, while mine was ripped from me. No one knows, not even the guys." I spoke.

My dream was to be a mother and a stay-at-home mom. But that was taken from me. If I were to get pregnant, I could die. I've made up my mind to not have a child. I couldn't bare it if I were to bring a child into this world and leave that child behind with the father. I've heard so many storied how sometimes the father would love that child, but I also heard that somethings they could blame the child for the death of parent. It goes for the mother also.

"Kris just because you cannot have your own child doesn't mean you can't be a mother," Charlie told me.

I shook my head and said, "I can't. I wouldn't be able to trust anyone. Besides I would rather stay as I am than to have someone else carry my child. Charlie you can live your dream. It's just sometimes I wonder if you ever wanted me to come live with you. I could have gone someplace else and lived."

He slammed his fist on the table and said, "No. After you ended up in the hospital after what out poor excuse of a father did to you, and you lost that child. I knew I had to get you out. I should have never left you alone in that house. I thought they would have changed once I was out, but I was wrong. I love you sis and I would never throw you away again."

I knew he was right. Charlie looked into my eyes and said, "A little birdy told me you wished you never agreed to help Kylie out this tour?"

I sighed and said, "It's been strange this time around. I just don't know. I'm just lost. You know how I get from time to time."

Charlie looked into my eyes and said, "Show me your arms right now."

I did as he asked. I showed him my arms.