*Ray Pov*
I walk into my room and collapse on my bed and stare at my sealing. An uneven surface of dirty white with splotches of yellow from leaking water.
"Gross." I mumble to myself out loud. I flip over to were i'm lying on my stomach faced away from the sealing and into my pillow. I let out a sigh and flip to my side, now facing my broken bed side table. Dusty wood covered in cuts from out burst with knifes. It as barely standing up with one leg missing it was basically angled on the wall so it would fall.
I sat up and looked around at my dimly lit apartment. Like the sealing and the bed side table, it was warn down, broken, dusty, and overall looked abandoned. *Good thing I don't live hear full time.* I think to my self as I grab my phone to see if anyone texted me. Nope honestly not surprised anymore. Who would want to text me? Fuck it who would want to talk to me? I have a disgusting voice, and i'm ugly as hell. I don't know why I even try. *I could do it again. I really could. But this time I would die.* I think to myself as I eye the medicine cabinet. Full of expired medicine it would get the job done better than before.
"Next time it'll be that damn thought of yours!"
I shudder as his words come rushing back. The memory's. Him pinning me to the wall and threatening me. me in my room over dosing on adhd medication. waking up to an abandoned house. Me talking for the fist time sense the OD of adhd meds and being scared of my voice. In those day, weeks, months I lost myself, my voice completely changed and I lost a sense of self in that. Those days were dark.
I can never forgive myself.
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