Revenge Or Love

Chapter 5

     Tae's POV

I was thinking how am I supposed to hurt my husband, my love,my heart, my breath, my everything. Yes I fell in love with him & who wouldn't despite knowing I'll kill him one day he didn't think twice before marrying me & actually reason I didn't know yet, he took care me & my family, endure everything my family threw at him without complaining with always sweet smile on his face & lastly loved a monster like me with all his heart. My thoughts were cut off when a lavendery vanilla scent hitted my nostrils I knew he is here & before I could turn around he back hugged me.

Jk:Mr.Hubby(softly)
He sounded so happy & excited. How am I going to see him breaking down in front of me? I can't I'm not go(cut off)
[Mrs.Kim:Tae c'mon start your acting]
Yes I'm connected to my family. I took deep breath here goes to end of me. I turn around holding securely & close to me.
Jk:Mr.Hubby why it's dark here?(pout)
I could feel him pouting such a baby he is I'm going to live every bit of this moment before disaster happens in my life.
Tae:Are you ready for your surprise sweetheart?(softly)
Jk:Yes(excited)
I snapped my finger light went "ON" he looked around pulling away still holding my hand. My breath hitched looking at him he was looking eternal angel whose heart I'm going to break & god is not going to spare me for sure. He looked at me making me forget the world those doe bambi eyes holds whole galaxy in them never fails to make my heart accelerate. The way they were shining see the decoration are soon going to turn dark & blank taking my breath. He finally spoke with his softly angelic voice which I die to hear.
Jk:You did all this?(looking around)
Tae:Yes you like it?
Jk:Like it? I love it Tae but why all this? You could've just taken me beach & I'll be happy.
The happiness he get in smallest thing made me fall for him more. I looked at his smile his bunny smile which he rarely show but it never fail to make my heart warm. I kneel down holding his hand he looked at me in shock & confusion made me chuckle.
Jk:What are you doing Mr.Hubby?(worried)
Tae:Shhs you talk too much today I'll say & you'll listen.
He nodded I took deep breath & spoke whatever my heart felt at this moment.
Tae: I want to tell you something I can't keep it to myself anymore. I know we didn't started on good terms & I'm really sorry for everything I did that hurted you but I promise here after I'll make sure that neither me nor anyone else hurt you{bzc you won't be with me here after}Jungkook since you came to my life you made me feel warm in my heart, I was person who believed he didn't had heart & you made his heart melt by mare smile, I didn't believe in caring for someone but your health condition made me take care, I wasn't never scared of losing anyone but seeing you fainting in front of my eyes that day made me feel fear of losing you, I didn't believe in love you made me feel what love is & I'm glad you did bzc even I wanted to feel to be loved by someone & that someone turns out to be you, I never looked at anyone even for a second but I can't control myself from looking at you everytime you're in front me & urge I've to hold you close to me & touch you like no one has ever touched anyone making he feel different person than I'm, I'm the person who never missed anyone but not seeing you for second making me miss you like hell. I never found anyone beautiful but the day I saw you in simple clothes made me realise there won't be anyone as beautiful, gorgeous pretty, cute also hot & sexy other than my husband. Your this bambi innocent eyes holds whole galaxy they're drowning me in them yet it feels like I'm not done yet, your button nose makes you look more cute when you sniff cutely, your those chubby cheeks are so soft makes me wanna bite them until they turn reddish purple.
I stood up touching his cheeks as he lean my touch closing his eyes made me smile at thought my mare touch is enough to make him submissive to me. I move my on hand below his lips caressing his cute mole.
Tae: Your this mole under your lips inspires me
Jk:Fo...r wh...at?(low shuttering voice)
Tae:For sucking it until I make you breathless.
He blushed I touch his lips they're so soft god please stop the time right now I can't do it please help me god.
Tae:Your lips makes me calm when you kiss my forehead with my knowledge & also without it but also crazy when I wanna feel them against mine. You know what made me fall for you so hard was your simplicity you're husband of "The Great Kim Taehyung" yet you live without being egoistic about it. Jungkook since you enter my life you gave meaning to it & now since I know how I feel about you I want tell you this that I LOVE YOU KIM JUNGKOOK I LOVE YOU SO MUCH SWEETHEART (softly).
As I said that tears welled up in his eyes but he was smiling made my heart stopped seeing the love he holds for me in heart has always been seen his eyes. I pull him closer looking at him looking at his lips & I lost it.
Tae:May I?
He saw where I was looking & nodded while blushing. I pull him more closer leaning attaching our lips he clenched on my coat. His lips are so soft like cotton. I started kissing him slowly & to my surprise he kissed me back I smile between our kiss.
[Tae's family was shocked will understatement seeing how desperately & passionately Tae was kissing Jk
Yoongi:What are you doing Tae?
Hobi:Shut up Yoon can you?]
I pull him closer deepening the kiss he wrapped his arms around my neck my hands made way to his waist pull him more closer if it's possible. I was kissing him passionately pouring all my love for him. Our first & may last kiss too. Tears roll down my eyes I let them flow but my heart clenched when he wipe them caressing my cheeks. How can you be so kind my love? How am I supposed to hurt you & live without you? He tapped my shoulder we pull back panting heavily. He tip toe kissing my forehead. I hugged him tightly nuzzling into his neck so don't see my hurtful self. After sometime I composed myself pull back looking at him he smile. I just hope he don't say it back so I get time to convince mom.
Tae: Let's have our dinner(softly)
Jk: Don't you wanna know my answer Tae?(pouts)
Tae: Let's have dinner first.
I try to convince him sorry love I know how much you love & you don't know how desperate I'm to hear from you that you love me which is not need bzc your actions speaks the love you have for me but right now I can't take a risk of losing you sweetheart.
Jk: Please (puppy eyes)
Not them please they're my weakness but I sigh heavily knowing he won't listen & his confession is gonna break me to my core. I nodded unwillingly. He looked into my eyes holding my hands caressing them he never fails to make me happy that I married him.
Jk:You know the day I saw you made me feel warm in my heart, your deep voice made me feel butterflies dancing in my stomach & it still does. Yes we didn't started on good terms but now whatever we have is best I could ask for. You never made me feel that you married me to take your revenge on Jeons instead you made me feel happy, wanted & loved. Yes you were rude & cold but your that rudeness & coldness always hold care & concern for me. Wanna know secret  (I nodded)  I was awake on our wedding night when you came to storeroom to check on me.
I looked at him shockingly but he smile.
Jk: I was awake & I felt so happy that you still cared for me, then when I fainted in your cabin & doctor told you about my health condition & way you stayed beside me taking care of me that made me fall for you & since then your everything made me fall for you even more every single day that I myself I didn't realise when & how I fall for you.
He took deep breath looking into my eyes. Don't say it please sweetheart not now please. I helplessly looked at him but something was different in his eyes made me feel very uneasy about it.
Jk: I LOVE YOU KIM TAEHYUNG I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MR.HUBBY (softly)
When he said that made stumble feeling like earth vanish under my feet but he pull me closer to himself looking at me worriedly. I should be happy right he loves me back. I pull my hands away turning around letting my tears fall.
Jk:Tae what happen?(worried)
He try to touch me but I move away wiped my tears took deep breaths turn around looking at him blankly.
Tae: Don't touch me (coldly)
Jk:Huh?(confuse) What happen bear?(worried af)
Fu*k did he just called me bear that sounds so good from his mouth. Taehyung concentrate. Why can't I just hug him & forget everything. God give me strength to do this & also to see his broken self.
Jk:Bear where are you lost?
He hold my hand but I yank his hand off mine. I'm so sorry for everything I'm going to do love hope you'll forgive me one day.
Tae: Didn't you hear what I said? Don't touch me & what you thought I'll really love you?
I laughed he looked at me with teary eyes I gulp Tae don't melt if you want him to be alive.
Jk:What are you saying Tae?(cracked voice)
Tae:Truth you really thought I'll love you, Jeon's son you're really fool Jungkook all this was only acting.
Jk:You y..ou were playing with me & my feelings all this time?(broken voice)
No love I really love you & I'm sorry may be we aren't meant to be together in this lifetime. I gulp hard & spoke
Tae:Yes of course I was playing with your feelings & you being fool believe me now my mom's revenge was over. Killing you would satisfied me & my family but you know heartbroken person dies every day so will you.
And so will I. I looked away bzc if I keep looking at him my heart will betray me which is already dying just seeing in crying. He turn me around holding my collar I looked at him angrily but the way he looked vulnerable, broken, body with soul & betrayal in his eyes feels like someone is stabbing my hearts continuously. I try to hold him
[Mrs.Kim: Don't you dare Taehyung]
I threw the bluetooth away not caring about anyone now & before I could hold him
Jk: For once in my life I thought I found my everything Taehyung everything in you. Tae tell me you're lying? You love na please tell it's just a prank. I know you love me tell na SPEAK UP GOD DAMN IT (desperately)
He fall on his knees still holding my hand crying harder I pull clenching my fist. I saw my mom pointing gun towards Jk.
Tae:Why would I lie I told you that I don't love you it was all just drama so I could take revenge from Jeons & make my family happy.
I turn around when I heard him chuckling bitterly. I looked looked at him & urge I had to pull him in my arms but it took every cell in my body to control myself he walked up to me.
Jk: I told you don't do something that will hurt you, I trusted you with all my heart hoping you'll not break it. I told don't make me feel anything for you but you didn't listen you could've just killed me & every one would be happy. Why all this drama Taehyung WHY BEAR?(shout)
He came closer to me pulling gun from my back pointing at his forehead made my heart dropped into my stomach. No don't be stupid Kookie please don't do this if something happen to you I'll die. I'm already regretting breaking your heart but don't give me life time regret that I'll not be able to breath properly.
Jk:Thank you for everything you did for me may be it was just the drama but you gave me the love I always wanted to feel now that your revenge is over let me finish everything once for all for you & your family. I love you so much. Bye.
He was about to shoot himself but thank god RM hyung took the gun from him. I sigh in relief.
RM:Are you out of your mind?(angrily)
Jk:Why are you worried for him huh? You all are same just blind in your revenge. Playing with people's hearts & feelings has always been Kim's thing (angrily)
Jin: JUNGKOOK (shouts)
Jk: Don't shout hyung & you(crying)
He walked up to me hold my hand that's when I realised there is bracelet in my hand when did he wore it to me. He pull me in middle of everyone holding my collar & I also let him see my helplessness now I knew very well he can read me like open but what made me shock he ignored it.
Jk:What was my fault? Is it my fault I'm born as Jeon? Is it my fault my parents never wanted me or that my own siblings hate me without knowing the reality. Is it my fault that I accepted you with all my heart & fu*king loved you KIM TAEHYUNG WAS IT MY FAULT THAT I COULDN'T STOP MYSELF FOR FALLING FOR YOU THAT I CHOOSE DEATH FOR MYSELF BUT YOU KNOW WHAT'S THE WORST THING IS YOUR ALL FAKE THINGS & DRAMA MADE ME BELIEVE MAY BE ONCE I'LL ALSO HAVE HAPPINESS IN MY LIFE & HOW WRONG I WAS. I HATE YOU ALL I HATE YOU ALL I HATE YOU KIM TAEHYUNG I HATE YOU.
He ran out from there. I fall on my knees not able to keep my strong self. Tears falling from eyes. It's not hurting that he hates me I deserve it anyways but his vulnerable & broken self hurtful eyes is killing me. I'm so sorry sweetheart I'm sorry I don't deserve you hope you'll be safe away from me. I started crying not caring about anything anymore.
Mrs.Kim: Finally our revenge is over now he'll die everyday day & I'll feel so peaceful. Thank you bear you made your mom proud now get up & let's celebrate our victory.
RM hyung try to hold me I glare at him wiping my tears harshly.
Tae: Don't you dare touch me (cold ruthless voice)
I left from there coming home as I enter our room but it felt so empty. I sat next to bed hugging myself crying my heart out.
Jk:Mr.Hubby what happen to you? Why are you crying (worried)
I hurriedly looked at him running to try to hug him but he vanished I looked around.
Tae: Sweetheart where are you? Please come to me please. You're right I love you so much please come to me na (desperately)
I looked around hoping he'll come to me but no I lost him I lost my everything. I dragged my self to washroom freshen up. When I was drying my hairs I noticed the bracelet on my hand it looks so beautiful I was so lost in you sweetheart that I didn't even realise when you wore it to me. I noticed something written on it "TAEKOOK". I smiling say it.
Tae: TAEKOOK Tae from Taehyung & Kook from Jungkook your thoughts are also unique like you.
My smile immediately vanished when his vulnerable state flash in my mind. I saw paper on bedside table I settled on bed after drying my hairs & open & started reading the letter.
               End Of Tae's POV
LETTER
MR.HUBBY,