❤NISCHAY MALHAN oneshots❤ [completed✔]

feeling of heart🥺🤍[finale]

Sometimes its just hard to believe, someone like you just exists...
Amongst the crowd of millions,
You never noticed me... 

Life as a fangirl, isn't easy...
You'll never know that i exist.
You made me love my scars,
Everytime i look at the stars...

The music that i hear,
i close my eyes.... As i allow myself to sink in my sweet lies.
I know my imaginations would never come true...
As baby, some dreams are never meant to be true.

Every time i pray to the god,
I pray for you...
You're the desire of my heart,
I just can't stop thinkin bout you...

Amongst the crowd of millions,
I stand there just to get a
glimpse of your face...
I scream to get your attention but i don't think my voice reached
you there.

Sometimes being a fan~girl
isn't easy,
I know you'll never know that someone loved you like crazy.
As you don't even know i exist.

I know you said you loved your fans more than anything else,
But i know you don't love me the way i dreamt.

You thank them for supporting
and loving you,
But you don't know how thankful they are to have an idol like you.
A crush you may say, but i
know you're more than that...

Another year of trying,
disappointment growing in me...
I hope someday i can meet you personally...
So that i can express how much i respect you...

I cry in my bed, my heart sinking deep...
The realisation just hit me that i can never confess my love, that i have underneath me.

You and i can never be a thing...  Afterall you're happy without me.
I know there's no need of me,
And maybe you'll find a girl you love deeply...

And stay happily ever after...
But what about me?
Maybe someday you'll retire
From the busy schedule...

I hugged my phone tight,
Which had the picture of you which i admired...
I think of the future... You have yours decided.

But what about me?
Can i live without you?
Why does it matter?
It shouldn't do...

As ofcourse you don't care,
I am just a fangirl amongst the millions of people loving you.

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This is me. Like these are my feelings. Maybe every fangirl's feeling if they love their idol a lot. Atleast i do.

I TRIED TO WRITE A POEM FOR TGE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE. PLEASE TELL ME IF I'M GOOD.

DID I WROTE CRAP OR DID YOU LIKE IT?

anyways do make sure to vote and comment wether you want me to try writing poem one more time for yall.

thecursedtale Ishanxlove Shouryagrawal slayyxffs Slayypoint_love Here guys do let me know what you think abt this.

I am not an expert writer or poet. Tried for the first time in life. So koi mistake ho to maaf kar dena.

Mujhe to rhyme karna bhi nahi aata idk how i managed to write this. Lol.

And this was the last part to this oneshot book. Which means it's completed. I throughout enjoyed reading some of your comments.

It made my day. I hope y'all stick with me. I am happy to have y'all.

Love y'all.
~rose chan💓