AMARILLO // vhope

June 4th, 2018 ― Seville, Spain; 10:59 pm

I found out that Jung Hoseok was born in Gwangju, his father's hometown in Corea, and lived there until four years ago when he came to Spain, where his mother was born. What is he doing in Carmona, specifically? I don't know, his Instagram profile doesn't say much about it.

But what I realized right away was that he is not only photogenic but also very talented.

He majored in dance at a Seoul university, and I can say for sure I've never seen anyone make dancing look so easy as he does — he has full control of his body and never misses a beat. I could watch him for hours.

Well, I did.

And accidentally liked an old selfie.

He had a cute pout on his lips and I didn't really think about what I was doing, I just touched the screen twice and just a few seconds later I came back to reality.

A 2016 publication.

I wanted the world to end right there so I wouldn't have to face the shame I was buried in.

Jungkook was sitting on the balcony drawing something and I even thought about asking him if Hoseok would receive the notification even if I removed the heart, but I wasn't in the mood to see him making fun of the situation and my sudden obsession with this guy, especially because it would probably be a laughing matter for a long time.

So what do we do in a situation like this?

Well, I didn't have to do much because, while I was static trying not to spew my heart out of anxiety hoping that god or any other higher being would hear my request to start the apocalypse at that very moment, I received a notification on my cell phone.

An Instagram notification.

hobihope just followed you.

hobihope just liked two publications.

He liked.

Two.

Publications.

Two!

And one of them was a picture of me.

On our first day here, when we went to see the sunflowers, Jungkook took a picture of me very close to one of them, and half of my face was covered by the petals. Coincidentally, I was wearing a yellow shirt that matched the field behind me very well.

I looked good in the photo. Did he think the same?

The other post was a video of the sunset scenery from my balcony I posted yesterday. The sky was beautiful, in a gradient orange, the sun disappearing on the horizon behind the mountains.

It took me a while to find courage, but I did what I wanted to do since I got into his profile. I didn't care about the notification he probably should've received.

taekim just followed you.

Would it be weird to send him a DM?

"sorry to stalk you". No. Nobody says that.

"I really liked your pictures". No, too weird.

I decided not to send anything, but I couldn't get out of his profile.

I just tried to be more careful this time.

at 2:54 pm

I realized that since I saw him on my first day here in Carmona, when Jungkook made me walk the whole city for not being able to hold his curiosity, I haven't written about anything else besides him.

I decided that I'll try to stop.

Well, I had decided to stop, but he got in the way.

In the afternoon, my best friend thought it would be a good idea to go to the pool area for a while. There weren't many people there and, to paraphrase, it was a good opportunity to enjoy the good weather and show the result of so many hours at the gym.

As I said, my focus was on taking the day off and forgetting that there was another beautiful man who, without directing me a word, was stuck in my head.

Jungkook and I sat on the loungers talking and sunbathing until we were interrupted by a "Aren't you Jeon Jungkook? GCF on Youtube?"

When I saw who it was, I almost choked on the water I was drinking. I almost embarrassed myself in front of him and, to be honest, it was very difficult to control my breathing.

He was shirtless, you know. Just in shorts.

Jung Hoseok was thin, but he had a very athletic body, like... Well, beautiful. He could be a model for, I don't know, underpants?? Not that I'm imagining him in underwear, I'm not that kind of person, it's just that...

Anyway...

"My name is Jung Hoseok and this is my friend, Min Yoongi. We're big fans of your channel!"

He and his friend, the same one I saw taking pictures of him in the sunflower field and who was also on the tour yesterday, seemed happy to meet Jeon, and my friend had a huge smile on his lips, his face all red.

"Thanks!" he looked at me. Maybe he noticed my condition. "This is my friend, Kim Taehyung."

"Ah, we saw each other yesterday!"

He remembered me.

And he smiled at me.

He shook my hand.

And his hand was very soft and delicate, but strong at the same time. I almost fell apart with nervousness and couldn't think of anything to say, so I just smiled.

They sat down with us and we started talking.

I found out that the hostel belonged to Hoseok's mother and maybe that's the reason we were always in the same place at the same time.

I also found out that Min Yoongi was from Daegu, so we got closer really fast. He studied music in Seoul and was a little shy, but very funny.

The good thing is that talking to Yoongi was a good way of distracting me from the sun-boy's presence; the bad part is that I wasn't very good at it, focusing on something other than him when he was around.

Just like yesterday, I couldn't control my eyes. When I realized, boom!, I was staring. Hope it went unnoticed.

When Jungkook and I decided to go back to the room, we said goodbye to them and I noticed he smelled really good, Jung Hoseok. He had a very soft scent, but also very striking, so much that I'm thinking about it until now.

Yeah.

Another day writing about him.

I'm screwed.

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