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Not over you | 013

- B I L L I E -

It's been a month since Aurelia dropped our friendship and I haven't talked to her since. Sure, I've seen her around when I was going to Gigi's apartment, but not close enough to actually say anything to her. She doesn't talk to me and I can't bring myself to talk to her. It's not like I could anyways, she blocked me.

I still don't get why she's like this.

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iMessage

gigi!!

bil im having a party tonight
you should come over

                                                              i don't know gigi

please it'll be fun i promise

                                                                             ugh fine

YAY THANK YOU

come over at 7

                                                                                   okay

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Later, in real life

I just got changed and now I'm on my way to Gigi's apartment building. The last time I went to one of her parties, where I met her and Aurelia, it was like a fucking meet and greet, so let's hope it's not as bad this time.

I get to Gigi's building and I go up to her apartment. So far, there's only a few people here. "Oh, hey, Lil." I notice Liliana sitting on the couch. "Hey, B." She smiles. "Where's Gigi?" I ask her. "In her bedroom, helping Aurelia." She shrugs.

Fuck.

"Aurelia's... here?" My eyes widen. "Yeah, why? Aren't you guys good friends?" Her eyebrows knit together. "Um, I gotta go." I lie and turn around and head to the door. As soon as my hand grabs the doorknob, someone says "Billie?"

I turn around and see it's Gigi. "Oh, hi." I wave awkwardly at her. "Where are you going? The party's just starting." Gigi laughs. "Look, I don't know if I should be h-"

I'm interrupted by Aurelia coming down the hall in a tight dress. Just like that, my feelings are back.

Ugh, this is fucking homophobic.

"Gigi, do y- Billie..?" Aurelia looks at me, noticeably uncomfortable. "Hi, Aurelia." I sigh and look down at the floor. "Gigi, why didn't you tell me she was gonna be here?" She asks Gigi, whisper yelling, although I can still perfectly hear her. "I didn't think I needed to?" Gigi says in a confused tone. "I wouldn't have came!" Aurelia groans. "Um, I'm right here." I scoff and she rolls her eyes at me.

Wow, when did this bitch get so sassy?

"Don't roll your fucking eyes at me, Aurelia. You're the one who stopped being friends with me." I remind her. "Yeah, but now I came to my senses and realized Lorenzo was right and you were trying to mess up my relationship." She crosses her arms.

Oh, she has some fucking nerve.

I start walking towards her with my fists balled up, but Gigi gets in between us so I can't reach her. "Billie, don't." She sighs. "She's being a fucking dick!" I exclaim. "Oh, I'm the one being a dick? Yeah, okay." Aurelia scoffs. "Yeah, you are." I huff. "Okay, what the fuck happened between you two? You guys were so close and now you just hate each other over Lorenzo Hernandez? Like, no offense, Rae, but look at your boyfriend." Gigi says to Aurelia.

"There's not much to look at."  I mumble under my breath. "Say that again." Aurelia clenches her jaw. "There's not much to look at." I repeat, getting up close to her. I look her straight in the eyes, close enough to hear her breathe. "What are you gonna do about that, Aurelia, huh?" I cock an eyebrow. She stays frozen, her face turning noticeably red even in the purple lighting Gigi has in her apartment from her lights. "Do I need to force it out of you?" I ask.

She gulps nervously and takes a step back. "That's what I thought." I smirk. "When did you become such a dick, Eilish?" She grumbles. "When did you become such a little bitch?" I say, making her laugh in disbelief. "Oh, you fuck-"

Aurelia starts coming back towards me, but Gigi pushes her back. "Enough! This is getting out of hand. You two are both grown fucking women, but you're acting like children. Grow the fuck up." Gigi sighs in frustration. Everyone else at the party leaves, noticing there's clearly something going on.

"I'm tired of this, just be fucking friends again, god damn it." She groans. Aurelia and I both glare at each other with our arms crossed, but small grins grow on our faces. "I guess I missed you a little bit, dick." Aurelia rolls her eyes and laughs softly. "I guess I missed you a little bit too, bitch." I chuckle.

She turns to me and sighs before opening her arms. "Come here, dumbass." She giggles. I walk over and hug her tightly. I've missed her hugs so much.

My Aurelia hugs.

"Jesus, finally." Gigi exclaims, making Rae and I let out small giggles. "I'm sorry, Rae-Rae." I whisper to her. "I've missed you calling me that." She whispers back with a small laugh. "I'm sorry too, Bil." She tells me. "Are we good now?" I ask, pulling away from the hug so I can see her. "We're good." She confirms with a smile.

"Fuck yeah, I've missed you so much!" I pick her up and spin her around. "Bil, put me down!" She squeals. "Okay, okay." I laugh and set her back on the floor. "I'm glad to have you back, B." She grins. "I'm glad to have you back too, Rae." I smile at her. "Alright, I have to run to the bathroom, but I'll be right back." She says before quickly walking off.

I watch her walk away with a smile on my face until Gianna shakes me out of my little trance. "What the fuck was that?" She asks. "You told us to be friends again!" I shrug, putting my hands up in defense. "That was girlfriend territory." She laughs. "What was?" I furrow my eyebrows. "You picked her up and spun her around. That's what Lorenzo does to her, bro." She tells me. "G, I don't think I'm over her." I sigh.

"Who can blame you? She's Aurelia." She chuckles. "I know, I'm happy to have her back as a friend, but it just sucks that I can't have more." I frown slightly. "I told you, don't give up. Things can always change." She reminds me. "I know." I nod my head, not really believing it though.

Aurelia is someone who's unforgettable. She's a sweet person, she's funny, kind, caring, loving and.. I could go on forever, honestly. I get she loves Lorenzo, but I still can't help but wish she loved me.

Maybe things could change someday.

I have to try somehow.