goodbye is the hardest word to say. always.
the reason? because when you say goodbye to something or someone in your life that's been there for a long time, you're also saying goodbye to their mannerisms, the way they talked to you. you're saying goodbye to time spent with them to build a relationship and that hurts.
goodbye hurts the most because it's one of those things where, once you say it, they're out of your life. there's no going back to them. there's no making up because once you've said what you've said, the damage is done. saying goodbye means that you're not inviting them back into your life ever again. that's painful for the both of you.
the word goodbye isn't just the end of a chapter of your life. it's the start of a new one. you can make new friends, and meet new people. you'll always hold those from the past dear to your heart, may even invite them back someday. but its also be an opportunity to start anew.
goodbye hurts. and it is hard to say. it's hard to say because you know you're going to forget them someday. you're going to forget your corny inside jokes. you're going to forget how you met them. you're going to forget their favorite food and what they like to do. you're going to forget the past someday. it'll be in the back of your mind still. but it'll be hidden, and that space will eventually dry up because you'll be watering fresh memories.
the thought of saying goodbye is also a scary one because you're scared to forget them. you're scared to start anew. you're scared to make new friends and go new places, but one door may open to a window and you can fly and thrive.
goodbye isn't always sad, yes, it hurts. yes, it is scary. but in the end, it can end up making you a better person. put you around more positive people. give you new chances. goodbye isn't always bad. sometimes, it's good. it's hard. but what's worth it doesn't come easy. ever.
