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Sighing as she swept the dust off the floor into the dust pan, Amerie was beyond tired. Withdrawals were getting worse and she somewhat felt lonely.
For the past couple of days Santana was starting to seem distant or in her opinion, Amerie thought he was just overwhelmed from work so she did the same and didn't think much of it.
But she still was curious.
She instantly puts her head down as he makes his way downstairs walking pass her without a word escaping his lips. Amerie was beyond confused they were fine a couple days ago, "Is it me?" She pondered in her head as she dumped the dust pan in the trash bin.
Locking eyes with his he simply ignored her presence before taking attention back to his phone smiling widely. Sucking her teeth she threw the dust pan down quickly rushing upstairs to her room.
Looking through her bathroom cabinet she came across her pink lighter along with the dutch she rolled earlier. On the way downstairs he stands there at the bottom of the steps glaring at her while she tries to avoid looking at him on the way back down.
"Why you throwing shit?" He asked sternly as she brushed passed him intentionally. Annoyed by her not giving him a response he decided to follow her to the back patio.
She just glares at him before sparking up blunt, chuckling to herself as she inhales. "You hear me talking to you." he said stepping closer as she sat comfortably on the chair in front of the pool.
"Amerie" He yelled sternly. "Now you wanna say something to me?" she said in her low pitched voice that Santana seemed to love.
"This is what this is about?" He laughed, "I apologize, it's nothing against you okay?" he says sitting by her. She scrunches up her face, still being confused as to why he wouldn't talk to her.
"Just because i'm silent don't mean there's anything going on between us, you ain't do nun ma, so stop overreacting and cut that attitude out we was just cool yesterday don't act brand new." He said playfully pulling her into a hug holding her tight.
"It's just been a lot going on, my job is to help you , don't worry about me I'll be alright but nothing is going on between us trust me." He reassured her making a big bright smile express across her beautiful face.
"I think the withdrawals are making me go crazy." She sighed making him caress her hand. "I'm sorry for yelling and cursing at you earlier too" He said as she laid her head upon his shoulder.
"It's okay, i'm sorry for being a big brat" She spoke before she kissed his cheek.
"I really feel for you Amerie in such a short amount of time, don't make this difficult." He sighed. "I don't know why." she laughed, he glared at her annoyed with her statement. He hated hearing her downplay herself he could never understand why she couldn't see what he saw and who was the reason for making her feel so low about herself?
Her being so insecure kinda was a pet peeve for him, only because he felt how can anyone love you if you don't love yourself ? Yes he values Amerie and sees her potential. But the real question was did she see her own worth and potential?
He didn't really know what he was getting himself into but he was gonna hold on for the ride.
"Why do you always make remarks like that?"Santana states as they began to lock eyes. "I don't know, I just think that you shouldn't have gone out your way for me.. i feel like there's some hidden agenda. Like I don't know what do you really want from me ?"
"We've had this talk before Amerie" He said putting his head in his hands. "Yes I know bu-", he cuts her off "You don't trust me?" He asked with a chuckle of him not being surprised.
"Look if I ain't give a fuck about you , you would know. But I don't know maybe you're used to those piece of shits and little boys claiming to be men that you can't see when theirs a good thing in front of you" He scoffed at the end of his statement, leaving Amerie with no words per usual.
She was just so confused but could you blame her? Her ex boyfriend friend takes her in and gets her off drugs, just for them to end up sleeping after 2 months of knowing each other. Now imagine how that would sound to others ? Well that's what she thought.
She was really starting to feel dirty and beat herself about it. Even though D'angelo was a dick head and abusive, she really didn't want anyone to know as people from her hometown always have something to say when it came to her. If word got out about her and Santana she would never hear the end of it.
Yes it's not necessarily wrong what she's doing she just feels everything went so fast. She normally never gives herself away so quickly and the thought of him getting tired of her made her overthink the most, she just doesn't want to be an objective to him.
For once she just wanted something real, a true relationship not based on sex and superficial bullshit. She could feel herself liking him more and it was becoming scary, the more she lingered upon the touch he left and imprinted on her it made her feel a pull between the two of them. She couldn't believe someone had such a big impact on her.
She just wanted to know he was sure of what he was getting himself into.
"I'm sorry, I just have trust issues" She pouted as he waved her off. "Yeah that's pretty evident" he sucked his teeth before walking off.
"Wait-" She tried to stop him but he had already rushed out the house to do god knows what.
Smoking the rest of her blunt she sighed before going back inside , locking the patio door back in the process. "Please, don't be upset with me..Like what do you want me to do ?I'm scared." She sighs running her hands through her curls.
"Scared of what ? I'm not like everyone else , like Amerie do you understand how offensive that is ? Im not those other niggas what don't you understand, stop comparing me to them. I'm honestly tired of saying the same stuff over and over again." He expresses sternly but not in an aggressive manner, as he doesn't like to behave irrationally around her.
"I understand all that you say, I apologize. Can we just take baby steps ? Like I don't know, I really enjoy your presence and I feel so connected to you in such a short amount of time. This is new to me, I just need the guidance, just show me and I'll follow suit." Ameries says with somewhat a pout gazing into his eyes, she places her hand on his making sure he saw she meant everything she said.
"I'll be willing to do anything to make it work." He smiles before the two lean in for a kiss giggling in the process.
"Let's not be petty no more, okay ?" She smiles back as he nods.
