Chapter 10: The Woman I Am Now

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2 years had stretched between Haerin and Minji, a chasm that went beyond the confines of a single summer. In the expanse of time, Haerin didn't merely drift; she purposefully anchored herself in a new life. The transient days turned into permanence as she bought an apartment, walls that echoed with her laughter but remained silent to the name that lingered in the recesses of her heart – Minji.

As life unfolded its tapestry, Haerin, now deeply woven into the fabric of routine, found solace and purpose. The mundane became the extraordinary, the ordinary transformed into a sanctuary. In the quiet hum of her own space, she discovered a haven that seemed to have room for everything but that elusive piece named Minji.

Then, in a twist of fate, Haerin, no longer content with being an observer of life, decided to become its narrator. The humdrum of her routine found an audience through the lens of her vlogs. The daily adventures, the mundane triumphs, and the quiet reflections on life became a part of her storytelling. A hobby evolved into a passion, and her sincerity resonated with an audience that grew, not just in numbers but in connection.

Her vlogs became a canvas, each episode a stroke of the brush painting the picture of her life. The digital realm embraced her, and followers flocked in, drawn to the authenticity that Haerin effortlessly portrayed. She found herself gaining not just subscribers but a community, a virtual gathering that shared in her joys, triumphs, and the quiet reflections on life's intricate details.

Yet, as she navigated this newfound chapter, there lingered a persistent itch at the back of her mind – a name unspoken but not forgotten. Minji, like an unfinished sentence, remained a silent echo in the otherwise vibrant narrative of her life. The bustling city outside her apartment window seemed to mirror her bustling existence, but within the walls, there was an emptiness only Minji could fill.

Haerin had crafted a beautiful life, a story that unfolded before the eyes of her virtual audience, but somewhere in the folds of that narrative, there was a pause, a void that hinted at a chapter left incomplete. As her vlogs resonated with others, her heart silently echoed with the memories of a summer that had shaped her, a friend she had left behind, and the haunting question of whether she had truly forgotten Minji.

At the age of 21, Haerin found herself at the precipice of adulthood, standing on the brink of a birthday that would usher her back to Seoul, her hometown. The mere thought of the impending celebration stirred a mix of emotions within her – a blend of excitement and a tinge of nostalgia for the life she had left behind.

She recalled the days when resentment clung to her like a shadow, blaming her family for the upheaval that had pulled her away from the familiar streets of Seoul. However, the passing years had woven a different narrative, revealing the unexpected opportunities and personal growth that flourished in the city of Busan. It was a realization that softened the edges of her resentment and replaced it with a quiet gratitude for the journey she had undertaken.

As she embarked on the train journey back to Seoul, the rhythmic clatter of wheels against tracks mirrored the passage of time. The landscape outside the window blurred into a nostalgic montage of memories – the fleeting glimpses of familiar landmarks, the shadows of the past mingling with the present.

Arriving in Seoul, Haerin was enveloped by the warm embrace of her family in her grandparents house. The once contentious move had evolved into a tale of resilience and achievement, a realization that left her thankful for the uncharted path that had led her to where she stood now.

The week spent with her family unfolded like a tapestry of shared moments and rekindled connections. The cityscape transformed with the arrival of winter, and the nights descended earlier, casting a serene hush over the familiar streets.

Seoul embraced the festive spirit, dressed in the shimmering glow of Christmas lights that adorned the town square. It was against this backdrop that Haerin decided to resurrect a cherished tradition – the annual ice skating ritual.

"I can't skate, I told you," Haerin's nephew pouted, his frustration evident. Haerin, bundled in layers against the winter chill, smiled warmly under her scarf. "Then hop on a banana," she suggested, pointing to the kids effortlessly gliding along the ice on banana sleds. Ji Hyun hesitated, glancing at the carefree kids, and then grumbled as she struggled to join them on the peculiar sled.

Haerin sighed, leaning against the rink, observing the comical scene unfold. Amidst the laughter and playful banter, a sudden burst of movement caught her eye. A figure, distinct in skill and grace, sped past her, effortlessly stealing her attention on the rink.

This girl, an embodiment of proficiency, executed twirls and maneuvers with finesse. Her short brown hair flowed with every graceful turn, her attire—black tights, black shorts, and a thin, tight sweater—hinted at a level of expertise that surpassed the casual ice skaters. The rink became her canvas, and her performance drew a captivated audience.

As the pale girl concluded her astonishing routine, the crowd erupted into applause, a symphony of admiration for the display of talent. When the spectators dispersed, the girl, still clad in mystery with her face covered, gracefully left the rink. Haerin, her curiosity piqued, raised a brow.

"Is that even a real job?" she wondered aloud, her tone carrying a hint of skepticism. With a scoff, she pushed herself away from the rink's edge, skating off into the winter night, leaving behind the captivating performance and the lingering question of the girl's enigmatic identity.

In the quiet depths of the night, Haerin found herself in the familiar sanctuary of her old room. The moon cast a gentle glow, highlighting the contours of the space that once held the fragments of her youth. The essence of nostalgia hung in the air, a delicate interplay of memories and the present.

Being back home felt like navigating through the corridors of time, where echoes of laughter and whispered secrets lingered in the walls. The room, adorned with remnants of her past, was both a museum and a time capsule, capturing the essence of a girl who had left to explore the world.

She stood by the window, the view outside a tableau of familiarity. The streets that once seemed mundane were now imbued with the weight of history, each corner telling a story of her evolution. The night sky, studded with stars, seemed to hold the secrets of her journey, a celestial canvas that witnessed the chapters of her life unfold.

A sigh escaped Haerin's lips, a sigh that encapsulated the complexity of emotions that stirred within. The paradox of being home, of finding comfort and strangeness in the same space, lingered like a gentle breeze. The air was thick with the scent of memories, and Haerin, amidst the silent musings, decided to yield to the embrace of her old bed.

As she slipped under the covers, the room enveloped her in a cocoon of familiarity. The creaks in the floor, the faint hum of the night outside, and the comforting weight of the blankets wove a lullaby of homecoming. The night, a canvas of dreams, awaited Haerin as she closed her eyes, surrendering to the embrace of the room that cradled both the girl she used to be and the woman she had become.

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