A vent and rant book

Scared

Tw:abuse? Idk

My brother told me that my mom is so mad because of my grades and I am scared-

If she was here she would like slap me or shout at me or take my phone away or ground me idk one of them or something that I can't even think about right now I told my dc friends about this and one of them said 'beat her up' (they didn't exactly say that but still I am not gonna say it) absolutely not! She might beat me up but I can't do that to her I highly respect her and I can't even think about hurting her not even one bit! No matter what she does to me i can't really snap at her. I already did once and I made her cry and because I am so emotional and have anger issues and so naive I also started to cry and started say sorry to her.

And I feel sick right now I feel like throwing up and I hate it. There is no one at home I am scared I feel like someone or something is watching I hate that feeling. I am gonna make myself some coffee I hope it helps me.