SELF MEDICATE

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by Fuentes_Turtle

by Fuentes_Turtle

VIC'S POV
I sat beside izzie the whole night and fell asleep with my back on the wall until I heard quiet sobs next to me. "Darling please don't cry" I said wiping my grogy eyes she sniffled "I-I wasn't crying" I put the screen light of my phone on her face , her eyes were puffy red with wetness surounding them. I slid down to hug her but she pushed me away " you better not hug me or else they'll think I slept with you to" she said coldly. "Iz stop it , he was just being an ass and he was drunk he didn't mean it". " oh yea sure he didn't mean it, I am a fucking failure to this universe im not good enough for my family and more than ever my mom and I am not your averge super model either I mean look at Danielle, Or Erin, they are hot and beautiful and what am I this gross existing creature that hides in the dark so no one sees me, I am tired of fucking living Vic" she said. She tried to sit up but failed miserably with whinces in between. " No you don't get to do this to me you don't get to unserstand because no has and no one ever will" she continued, I looked at her she was so broken, I will never know what she has been through and it makes me sick that people don't enjoy her because she is beautiful and smart and funny and Mike couldn't have picked anyone better. " You're right I don't know what you've been through and I probly won't understand but I can try and I will be there for you because I know how it feels to be addicted to the feeling of a blade touching your skin, I know what its like to feel unwanted, and you are beautiful, and hot and super models are just a job to be something your not for society to have a sense of judgment on how the world should look, I like Danielle not because of her looks sure shes hot but I love her the most when she wakes up in the morning with no makeup and her hair looks ugly as fuck, and she has that laugh of embarrassment" I helped her sit up and straddled her to sleep. When I was sure she was sleeping I layed her down and went into the lounge area where Mike was on the couch. He rolled his eyes and continued watching the film "how could you be so goddam souless" he lighly laughed "that'd be true if I had a soul to begin with" I was about ready to punch him "Is this a fucking game to you toying with people's emotions, she cut herself, and do you know how hard it was for me not to remember why I cut, your such an asshole sometimes" he huffed and went back to playing on his his phone "We're here I heard our driver said, already what time is it. I checked my phone it was 5:00 in the morning. "Really??" Mike called out. "Shut up people are sleeping" I hissed at him. "Fuck off" he said and got up and headed to the door.we went outside. Mike was on the phone with someone and a cigarette in his mouth. "Hey sorry pops did I wake you?
"We're outside we arrive way earlier than we expected." He hung up and finished his cigarette.
MIKE'S POV
I threw my bud to ground and stepped on it. Soon enough I saw my dad In the doorway of the house. I started walking each step just wanting to run back and get izzie. But after what I did she'll hate me till the end. I got inside and Vic waited by the door as I followed my pops upstairs. We went into the guess bedroom, motioning me to sit on the bed he sat next to me. "Are you sure son you've been doing good, and I don't want you getting addicted because its bad enough you smoke that meirda(shit)." He said sternly with anger. " I've been loosing control pops I don't want to hurt her so bad that I hate myself" he looked at me confused "Her?" I nodded and he pulled out a pill bottle and handed it to me and left as he left he told "Your choice and I can't stop you" he left the room leaving me and the pills. I went over the words Anti-anxiety Medication with my fingers. I poped open the bottle and took one.I sat there a minute before going downstairs. I saw mama making food, knowing her she always would do anything for us even if it ment waking up at 5:00 in the morning to make us food. She put it in a container and kissed us goodbye but before I left she whispered "you be good to her Mike, and don't ask how I know, a mother always knows". We walked to the bus, "what was that all about" vic asked nonchalantly. "Nothing" I hissed. "What jumped up your ass and died" he mumbled and went into the bus. "Back to our place" I told the driver. Its now or never. I went to the bunk area and slid into my bunk with her. I straddled. She looked so peaceful only to be ruined when she sees me.
IZZIE'S POV
"I'll never love a fucking piece of shit like you"
"Why would I love you"
"You fucking discust me"
"Please Mike im so sorry please, please look at me," I felt a heavy weight in my chest and I can't breathe. I watched as he walked away. Leaving me cold as if it was nothing.
"Shhh , shh baby im here its ok" I snapped back into reality, realizing it was a dream.