Child of a criminal Mpreg Larry Stylinson

Part 11

(Louis's POV) 

Oh my god oh my god oh my god was all could think of as I walk into the gang house I couldn't believe it Harry was the kid I raped and we have a kid together only Harry doesn't know that part  what he would he think of me if he found out I was his rapist I walked back and forth in my room not knowing what to do I remember that night pretty well I mean it's not hard to forget something like that 

It was only me being selfish and I was mad because I couldn't find anyone to become my next victim of murder so I took pleasure of raping a innocent kid I never thought I'd regret it until now I lay down on my bed looking up at the ceiling I couldn't tell Harry because I'll be thrown out of his life in no time I'm not sure how long I was in my room but soon Zayn, Niall, and Liam were all in my room "what's up with you tommo" Zayn asks 

"It's not good" I tell them "why did you and Harry break up" Niall asks "no we aren't dating and if I tell him something he'll never want to date me or even see me again" I say "tell him what" Liam asks confused "do you guys remember seven years ago when I went to that bar and I told you how I couldn't find anyone to kill but I raped a kid" they all nod "well it turns out that-that kid was Harry" they all gasps "the Harry you've been seeing" Liam asks "yes and he got pregnant oh my god guys Freddie is my child I have a son" I tell them starting to freak out again 

We all are quite for a few minutes finally Liam speaks up "so what do  you plan on doing Lou tell him or are you just going to continue seeing him and act like nothing is wrong" "that's just it I don't know I don't want to stop seeing Harry but I also don't want to not tell him because then the guilt will eat me alive but on the other hand if I do tell him he'll through me out of his and Freddie's lives and then the pain of losing the both of them will eat me alive or worse cause to go completely insane maybe up to the point where l'll kill myself to stop the pain" 

I say freaking out falling face first on the bed my face in the pillow all the boys didn't know what to say I could tell they've never seen me act this way before hell I've never seen or heard myself act this way before either then Niall clears his throat "maybe it won't be that bad Lou maybe if you just be honest with him he'll understand and sure he'll probably be upset but it might help knowing the other side of the story" "Niall's right if you explain what happed that night careful to him he won't be as anger as you fear" Zayn says I think for a moment they could be right 

"But how on earth do I explain it to him I mean how do I even start that kind of conversation" I complain "just tell him you have to tell him something and go from there just don't beat around the bush that will probably only make things worse" Liam says "ok so tell him I have something to say then just cut straight to the point" they all nod "seems easier said then done" I mumbled to myself "don't worry lou I'm sure things will be fine so when are you going to tell him" liam asks "I'm not sure should I do it tomorrow or wait" "probably tomorrow better now then later" Zayn says I nod "also another bit of advice if he tells you he needs some space for awhile that doesn't mean he never wants to see you again it means he just needs some time to think" Liam says 

I nod again ok I guess I'm telling Harry tomorrow I just hope I don't lose him and Freddie they have become the thing that makes me want to live take that away well hopefully I won't have to found out