judgement || tysh/joshler

one

JOSH POV

i was boredly flipping through my history textbook, waiting for class to end. brendon was sat next to me, asleep.

im almost falling asleep too but then i hear the teacher say the word "project". fuck this shit.

now normally im okay with projects since i can just do them with brendon, however in this case I can't. mrs. o'donnel never lets us pick our partners.

and as she starts reading the partners list i freeze. "joshua dun and brendon urie"

HELL YEAH, i internally yell. i happily look at brendon that was still sleeping. i shake his shoulder and as he wakes up, i tell him the news. thats a weight off my shoulders.

imagine i had to do it with- "mrs. o'donnel? i dont have a partner" said a well too familiar voice.

the teacher looked up. "oh, tyler! my bad. looks like we'll have to put you in a group with 2 others." she said and looked at the class. i tried to hide behind my water bottle that was on my desk. "oh. there, you can partner up with brendon and josh." she said. i again froze, mentally yelling WHY.

tyler looked behind trying to find me. we then make eye contact. he kinda just stares for a minute.
"okay."

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now the thing about this guy. he's the leader of the basketball team, probably the most popular guy at our school.

his life seems perfect. it is perfect. or so I thought.

june 17th, 2 years ago, school hallway

me and brendon were rushing to the exit. 9th grade is finally over. everyone was throwing sheets of tests or paperwork on the ground, i felt sorry for the janitor. we were walking down the stairs where there also were a lot of paper, jesus christ i think to myself. then i trip over something. a book. really?

i pick it up, expecting it to just be a school textbook or something. instead i see a plain grey notebook, open the first page and read "property of tyler robert joseph". holy shit, aint that the leader of the basketball team tyler joseph?

i flip to the book and stop at a random page. first words read "dear diary, why do i get hard whenever i see the guys in my team naked in the showers?"

holy shit..

and uh.. yeah. i read more of that and it was pretty clear.. tyler joseph was a gay man, but he is afraid of it.

im guessing that's why he started bullying gay people. so others dont suspect him of being that way too.

and yeah, im one of the only openly gay kids at school, so of course im part of his little "victims".

and yeah, I let him do it. he doesn't even physically hit me, and when he tries its just a terrible ass hit. dude really needs to learn how to at least punch someone right.

so he verbally abuses me. i really dont mind it, you can tell he's already running out of insults by now. im just.. letting him do his thing. i guess.

little harmless hot closeted gay man.

oop. I said hot. leave me alone. you have to see the guy, he's so fuckin majestic with his fluffy ahh hair and his eyes, and his mouth, and his nose-

fuck.

no, i dont like him. why would i like him? who even likes tyler joseph? fuck that guy.

okay I like him. he's awesome okay? you've gotta see him play basketball. he's like, the hottest thing ever.

that also might be a part of why I let him bully me. why dont I make a move, you ask? well im a fucking idiot, that is why.

I've liked him since 10th grade. he had a major ass glow up then. that's also when he started bullying me. but I get him. I do. he's afraid. and I could help him. should I help him? maybe. I've been thinking about it.

I mean, the story starts here. which means I have to do something interesting right? Im the main character or some shit. I dont know.

we'll see.

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alright so uhm. this is terrible💀 i jus wanted to update tho. next chapters will probably be better tho(i hope)