Cachè | Complete One Shot Collection | Jaspar

The "L Word" and Gossping YouTubers.

"Casparrrrrrrr!" I yelled running trough the terminal and dropping my bag.
"Joe!" He laughed running up to me and engulphing me in a hug. I cuddled my head into his neck and mumbled in delight.
"I missed you soooooo much."
"Same we are never doing that again. 3 months is too long." Caspar said.
I looked up and saw Will filming.
"Turn it off!" I said as he nodded and put the camera down.
I pulled back and rested my head on Caspar's.
"I don't think I've missed you this much before." I smiled.
"Why do I still miss you?" He asked biting his lip. I smirked and lent forward kissing him softly.
I pulled back and stared at him.
"Hi." I smiled
"Hi." Casper said.
I pulled away and looked towards Alfie, Zoe and Will.
"Hi." I said awkwardly. I let go of Caspar's hand and went and gave Zoe and Alfie a hug before taking the camera off Will then finally hugging him. I looked at the camera and turned it on checking the footage before pushing it to Will's chest and turning around back to Caspar who was now holding my bag.
I realized that no one had spoken and stopped in my tracks.
"What?" I asked obliviously.
"Wh- how- huh?" Zoe let out.
"Oh shit we didn't tell anyone yet did we?" I laughed.
"Yeah this is a thing now, a private thing might I add." Caspar said casually.
"Why are you two acting so normal about it?" Will asked still confused.
"How long have you been hiding this in front of our noses?" Alfie asked.
"Ummm..." I trail.
"Since Easter wasn't it?" Zoe asked now figuring it out.
"Five bloody months! Seriously?" Alfie said astonished. "I feel violated." He said dramatically.
"Oh don't be so dramatic. It's not like we are in love or anything." I say.
"It's just sorta happened." Caspar said resting his head on my shoulder.
"This is gonna take some getting used to." Will said as Zoe and Alfie nodded.

-

One week later
Breakfast with Joey, Dan and Phil.

"I can't believe how close Vidcon is." I say twirling my straw in my drink.
I looked up and noticed that no one was speaking.
"We know." Dan said. I looked at them confused.
"About?" I asked oblivious.
"Caspar..." Joey said slowly.
"Who?" I asked annoyed.
"Alfie... actually Jim told us, Alfie told Jim." Phil spoke.
"Seriously no one can have a private life in this circle can they?"
"Look we don't think there's anything wrong with it. It just would have been nice to know." Joey said.
"Damn right ya better not, because all three of you have been exactly where I am." I said eyeballing them. They all went back to eating, staying quiet.
"So Joey when ya gonna spill?" I glanced up at him then back to my toast.
"Spill what?" He asked.
"Oh come on it's so obvious that your hiding something." Dan put in.
"Yeah... I'm not aloud to say anything." Joey said secretively.
"You're engaged!" Phil said loudly pointing at him.
"Where did you get that from?" I asked.
"I asked Daniel the same thing the other day and He said he couldn't say anything. Why else would you two go on a spontaneous trip to The UK!?!? You two were fricken keeping it on the down low!" Phil said excited. We all turned to Joey.
"Well?" We all said simultaneously.
"I hate you Phil..." Joey Trailed.
"I knew it!" Dan laughed.
"Joey's engaged, Joeys engaged!" I chanted.
"But you can't tell anyone you Dicks!" He said trying to be serious.
"Okayyy..."

-

As Phil and Joey filmed in Phil's room Dan and I sat on our laptops in the living room enjoying each other's company.
"Why?" Dan asked out of complete silence. I looked around confused.
"Why what?"
"Why, is it just a casual thing? You and I both know that never works." Dan explained.
"I don't know it just started that way and we never stopped it, so it still is; casual!"
"Don't you want more than that though?" He asked a little too seriously.
"Of coarse I do. Who doesn't?"I say saving my edited video with the click of a mouse.
"Are you gonna do anything about it? I can tell you from experience Casual will screw everything up!" Dan said plugging his hard drive into his MacBook.
"No."
"No?"
"Yeah, I don't want to screw it up, what if he wants it to stay this way and I ruin everything by telling him I want more. What if I lose the small part of him I already have trying to get more?"
"To many 'what- ifs' not enough 'why nots?'!!" He said as the bedroom door opened as Joey and Phil finished filming. They walked in laughing. "Had fun?" Dan asked as Phil came up behind the couch and wrapped his arms around Dan's neck building a massive grin on his face.
"Yep! We are done!" Phil smiled kissing Dan's cheek.
Why can't I have that?

-

"Joe?" Caspar asked opening the door to my room. I span on my chair and smiled at him.
"Yeah?" I asked.
"I need a hug." He said standing in his spot and opening his arms. I chuckled and took off my headphones walking over and embracing him.
I cuddled into his chest.
"You okay Casp?" I looked up at him.
"Yeah I just missed you."
"How can you have missed me? I'm in the next room."
"I don't know, I feel like I'm constantly wanting to be with you and it's seriously distressing!" He said laughing awkwardly.
"How is this thing we have in any circumstances normal?" I asked Casper didn't answer and instead held onto me tighter and slowly waddled forward dropping into the bed with me on top of him.
"I think there is a four letter word that describes this thing, but I don't think we have a right to use it because we've abused every chance of honesty and realism in our thing you can hardly call a relationship." I say filling the dead silence.
"What are we gonna do Joe?" Casper looked at me sadly. I frowned at him and cuddled into his side.
I listened to his throbbing heart beat in my ears for what felt likes ages. Before Caspar finally broke the silence.
"I love you." He spoke in a terrified tone. He was scared. I was scared. And I did what I always did.
I stood hastily and looked at him tears forming at the corner of my eye.
"I love you too." I said voice breaking before bowing my head and turning on my heel running up the stairs out the front door.
I have to get away from this Far away.
I need to work it out.
I need Zoe!

-

"Why did I know this was coming Joe?"
"Because you know everything I'm going to do wrong before I even do it!" Looking down at my lap, I shuffled slightly crossing my legs and facing Zoe on the couch.
"You sat on a train for two hours to tell me that?" She tucked a strand of hair behind her ear and giving me an unwanted look of sympathy.
"Tell me what to do?"
"Joe..."
"Tell me!"
"It's not that simple. Joe, it's your decision, it's your life."
"This is killing me."
"Love does that."
"But it's not love, it's an unhealthy addiction to each other. It's not love. We treat each other like nothing. Yet mean so much to each other."
"Sounds like the L word to me."
"Fuck the L word. Is it sad that I don't even care about the Love side of it anymore. I care about how much I have ruined."
"It takes two." She spoke looking off.
"No, I kissed him first! I said I wanted to keep it up! I slept with him! I spent every waking moment thinking about him! I feel in love! It was all me!"
"It may feel like it now but it's not the end of Joe and Caspar. It really isn't.
You two are inseparable whether you decide to be in a relationship or revert back to friendship. Either way it's going to hurt and take a LOT of work to get to a healthy place. But I know Joe and I know Caspar inside and out and I KNOW they will." She said poking my knee.
"Why is it so easy to ruin something but so hard to build it up again?" I say groaning and leaning back onto the couch.
"We just have to accept that's how it works."

-

I lifted my hand to touch the ice cold metal of the brass door knob and slid my key into the slot and turning the squeaky handle.
"Come on." I whispered to myself shakily before walking up the stairs and opening the front door to the apartment which was luckily unlocked. I took a hasty breath and shook my body from head to toe.
"Ca- Caspar!" I forced a yell. No response. I frowned and made my way down stairs to his room.
I knocked on the door and no response again.
I opened the door slowly. Caspar lay curled up in his bed facing away from me.
I walked over to the bed and climbed under the covers before cuddling up to Caspar.
"It's over isn't it?" Caspar mumbled.
"Yeah it is." I said sadly kissing him on the neck. I sighed and got up making my way towards the door.
"You're not leaving yet are you?" Caspar asked scared.
"Not yet." I frown looking towards the floor.
"You know I love you right?" Caspar asked.
"Love you to Casp."

A/N
Hey, hope you like it.
I kind of wanted to lean more towards a realistic storyline with this one. Not everything is going to be fluffy.
I'm trying my best to make these stories even better and different than the last.
Sorry I haven't uploaded in a while; was too absorbed in writing for my other story.
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