Scars

15

                                         Aaradhya

Anxiousness.

Troubled.

Uneasy.

Perturbed.

You name it I feel it.

After my embarrassing act at the café I have been constantly re-thinking about my decision of giving us a chance.

Whenever I think in favor of my decision him being an asshole to me in the past flashes in my mind and my commitment phobic ass doesn't help either.

And as soon as I think against my decision my sisters 'hredhaan glorifying campaign' flashes in my mind.

He saved you.

Twice.

He watched over you.

He cares for you.

He feels for you.

You should give it a chance.

I have seen it in his eyes.

He seemed genuine to me.

That is all she has to say to me from yesterday.

She is walking-talking hredhaan hymn who just wouldn't stop.

Did I say yes too soon?

But he has started to seem genuine to me now.

Now it's not like I was not sure when I said yes to him but the after possibilities of what if it didn't go well what if we ended on a bad note made me anxious about this and I don't even know if this makes sense or not but it is what is.

My life is literally the epitome of confused and crying emoticons.

And hredhaan is the angry-bird turned heart eyed emoticon of my life.

I can't even ask for a second opinion because all I hear is wo acha ladka hai.

Arey toh main kya criminal hoon main achi nahi hoon?

A buzzing sound from my phone breaks my trance.

Hannah Blaine: Meeting at 2pm
                                 bakers resort.

                                                                               You: 👍🏻

Seeing this message reminded me of how I also need to have a detailed conversation with hredhaan on keeping our personal relationship and professional dynamics separate.

I might not be the smartest and nicest person when it comes to relationships but I harbor common-sense which enables me to think what issues can cause insecurities between us.

And business dynamics is definitely one of them.

As much as we try to console our heart highlighting on how common it is in this industry but I am sure there will be a point in our lives when it is going to prick like needles straight in our heart.

We might be having major possibility of working together for this project but it isn't going to be the same always and I do not wish to lose my hard earned individuality anytime soon.

I do not expect anything but I really hope for the best.

I watch the clock hit one past half and leave for the meet up.

As I park my car in the parking area I see a familiar figure come towards me.

Randhir Randhawa.