Scars

26

                                       Aaradhya

“It’s not me aaradhya it’s you. You are a horrible person and that’s why nobody wants to stay with you everyone leaves you and at the end you are left alone with nothing except your hollow tears” he spits and I still in my place not because it hurt but because it was true.

I feel my eyes getting moist realizing the truth behind everyone leaving me all these years.

He pushes me away and I lose my balance falling on the ground.

“This is what you are in reality all alone, broken and helpless. All your strong aura is just a façade and I will make sure you stay like this forever. Alone, broken and helpless” I hear him say each and every word with so much hatred that it becomes difficult for me to breathe.

I feel suffocated.

I refuse to believe this is the same man I was with from the past month.

I hear his descending steps and feel him walk away on me.

You are a horrible person.

No one wants to stay with you.

Everyone leaves you alone and you are left with nothing except your hollow tears.

I break down and start to sob loudly all the memories from today playing in my head.

He was right.

I didn’t mourn for my parents.

I resented them all these years.

Because I am a horrible person.

I should have died in the car crash instead of my parents.

I am a terrible person.

The guilt of not mourning for them and respecting them like a daughter should have won’t let me live.

I am sorry.

I am so sorry.

Mom Dad.

I know you both hate me.

I hate myself too.

I should die.

I need to die.

Getting up I take slinking steps in search of finding the blade I saw this morning while the decoration was being done.

I need to find it and end this chapter of my life.

Desperate to find the blade I feel myself tripping over somethings until I finally find it.

I take the blade and half cut my hand.

Just few moments more.

The pain will go away soon.

I place it again on my hand but someone snatches it out of my hand and throws it away.

I look up to see the person daring to snatch my peace from my hand.

“What do you think you were doing?” kunal screams at me.

“Get lost from here” I yell and go towards the blade to take it again.

I feel him come behind me but I don’t care.

In an instance I am turned around and slapped on my face.

Kunal shakes me aggressively and I come feel myself coming out of whatever zone I was in.

“Stop this madness aaradhya” he speaks but withdraws his hands feeling something wet blood on his hands.

“Oh my god what have you done to yourself?” he exclaims.