The day I got very impatient. The day he told me. on a simple phone message. My hair still freshly wet out the shower, he told me...
"Yes"
"I'm leaving you"
But why? Was I that bad? I'm sorry, don't leave me please. I'm sorry. I'll change.
The day my heart sank to the deepest trench ever recorded in history. It's like my heart was shoved down my throat.
All our promises. All our dreams.
All the things we did behind those walls.
I haven't kept a lot of promises in this lifetime, and I'm not gonna add more to it.
I only said those things because I love you
"This relationship is toxic, you're toxic"
Please at least not now, please I'm begging you, don't leave me, at least not yet
"No, I'm leaving you, NOW"
It's no use talking to him , I hadn't realized that yet at that time. It's my fault isn't it? Another relationship failed, this is my 3rd, 2 of them is an LDR(Long Distance Relationship), my mom doesn't know any of them, I can't have one until I finish highschool and find a stable job, I finally had a boyfriend at the young age of 14, he's gentle, kind, caring, loving, very fine, talented, and has a very gentlemanly personality, too gentlemanly, the first time I saw him, I fell instantly.
I never regretted that, and I'm never gonna give this relationship up, even if it makes me look delusional, well I might really be am, I'll love him till the end of time, I'd rather spend my remaining days with him than marry to another man that isn't him, he's the one I'll love, for the rest of my life. No matter how messed up fate will be for us, I'm not gonna loose him, not this time, not in my next life, not anymore.
Hi, I'm name is Gurimusu-chan, people just simply call me Gumu-san. I was originally classmates with Aikira-kun, you guessed it, he's my former boyfriend, he's a very bright, smart and all in all cute and good kid, his parents is a little strict ever since we were kids. And so, we met again after 5 long years.
It all began,
In the spring, of year 2XX3, every end of class, everything used to be so dull yet lively around me, I couldn't care less of what people thing of me, and that's when I noticed him, Aikira-kun, tall, all grown up, completely changed, but I still recognized him, there was a burning match that fell on huge box filled with fireworks inside me, and ever since that day, I started to notice him again everywhere, me it lunch or after school, that's when the first firework went off, I called his name "Aikira-kun!" He looked, my heart filled with joy that it was really him, I shouted while running on the way home on a complete rush "Have a good rest of your day! Aikira-kun!" he was eating a street feed at the time, I could still remember. His face looking at me with complete confusion, but it was in a good way.
Those days.
No matter how hard to do all the things I've already done, if I could go back to that very time, I'd do it, I'll make everything better, I'll be better, I'll do my best, I won't be a burden! I won't complain! I'm gonna enjoy all our time together! I'm gonna love him more than anyone else! I'm gonna love him more than ever before! I'LL DO IT ALL AGAIN!! ALL! ALL OF IT! Again and AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN!! Everything.. I'll do everything! I.. I'll treasure you . . .
Just please, Don't- ..don't leave me please, not now.. not ever... love..
Love..?
Please- please hear me..
Love me..
Please.. ?
God?
if I do more good things, will you reward me with this? God?
Will you give me another chance to make Aikira-kun love me too, more than he ever did?
God, please answer my prayers
There won't be any gain of you won't even try, right?
What's wrong with trying?
I'll get him back to me.
One day, I will- no..
You will, love me again.
No matter what
