Udah lima bulan Rezky ngga ngubungin gue lagi. Gue udah benar-benar ngelupain dia, gue udah jarang ngestalk fb nya bahkan nomor nya udah gue delete. Pulang dari sholat tarawih di puasa hari kedua, tepat nya hari ini gue lihat ponsel gue yang gue bawa ke masjid. Gue liat ada pesan masuk, gue kira dari Bambang tau nya nomor ngga dikenal.
+6289....: Malam heii :D
Me: Siapa?
+6289....: Ini Selly bukan?
Me: Iya
+6289....: Ini Kiky sel.
Me: Kiky?
+6289....: Iya, Rezky maksud nya.
'What? Rezky? Kenapa dia datang lagi? Belum puas apa bikin gue sakit hati?'. Bermacam-macam pertanyaan keluar dari pikiran gue
Rasa kesal, sedih, galau, semua berkecamuk didalam diri gue. Kenapa datang lagi sih, ada yang ketinggalan apa?
Me: Tumben sms? Ada apa?.
+6289....: Ngga ada apa-apa. Baru ada pulsa, jadi baru bisa sms Selly.
Me: Jadi selama ini lo ngga punya pulsa, Yakin?
Kita terus smsan. Gue tau gue amat sangat galau, sehingga gue ngajak temen gue keluar ketika semua udah pada pulang dari tarawih. Untung nya mereka mau jadi rasa galau itu sedikit berkurang.
Ketika pulang kerumah gue galau kembali. Gue tau gue sangat susah melupakan nya, diri nya seorang Rezky yang pernah menjadi kekasih gue sesaat.
'KENAPA SIH LO DATANG LAGI!!! KENAPA? GUE SAKIT... HATI GUE SAKIIITTTT! SAKIT BANGET LO GINIIN GUE! LO SMS GUE DENGAN KEBAIKAN SESAAT LO, BAHKAN LO SAMPE BUAT GUE MELTING GINI! SADAR WOII LO UDAH BIKIN GUE KECEWA BAHKAN SAKIT! GUE SEKARANG GAGAL MOVE ON LAGI. SUMPAH JAHAT LO!' Teriak gue dalam hati, tanpa gue sadari gue udah menitikan air mata. Gue mengacak acak rambut frustasi.
Dia menanyakan gue kuliah dimana, gue ngga biarin sms dia ngga gue bales karena gue tau kalo kita bakalan satu kampus. Oom gue mati matian cari cara supaya gue masuk di Universitas itu.
Tapi gue udah ngga ada niat masuk Universitas itu, gue tau Rezky udah lulus disana. Gue berharap kalo gue ngga bakal diterima di Universitas itu.
Air mata ini terus mengalir, gue masih kepikiran dia. Malam ini gue galau berat. Yeahh.. i know i really miss you, and i know i love you! But it all away. Gue putar lagu yang ada di hp gue. Dan mulai terdengar lantunan sebuah lagu.
Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed
You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test
He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...
You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...
Thinking Of You - Katy Perry
Dia yang udah ngga kenal gue, dua yang udah ngelupai gue, dan dia yang selalu bikin gue gagal move on. Gue berharap kalo gue ngga bakal kenal dia lagi.
"Cinta tidak selalu hadir dalam diri mu. Cinta tak menentu kapan ia akan datang, dan kapan ia harus pergi. Satu hal yang aku tau, cinta sejati tidak akan keluar masuk hati ini."
