Struggles of self hate And Doubt

Open

I opened my doors
I let them in
All to see
See what frightened me

They all ran
Ran far away
They stayed away

I shut down
I never opened
Opened those doors
The doors of me
They were locked
Locked and rusted

Then one day
This nice guy
He walked up
Saw my chains
Saw me
He didn't care
He wanted to help

I was scared
Scared if I open he would run
Run and hide
Hide like the others
Never to be seen

This man
He was different
I told him my problems
He listened
He waited
He wanted me to open
Open for everything to see

I opened my rusted doors
They felt like pain
Pain being restored
The pain went away

My doors remained open
But still a secondary lock
A lock still yet to be opened

Here we are
To let him in, Scares me

I will try
Try to be honest
Try to be brave
But what I will say

They are open
People will see
I am not afraid
Not afraid any longer