Blue Betta

12. Final Part Three

The coffee was not doing anything to help Jinsoul. If anything is was just giving her a headache. She tries to focus back on all the words sprawled out on the table. For the past two hours, she's been trying to study but it's not coming to her. The first set of exams were coming up in a couple of weeks and she can't seem to settle down and look over the notes properly. She was so used to Sooyoung being there in front of her helping her out when she was stuck on something because the woman was so good at finding the details she needed to know.

She groaned and took another gulp of the now lukewarm coffee. It had been weeks since New Year's and their relationship was taking a turn for the worst. Sure they had gone out a few times but it felt awkward and forced like neither of them wanted to be there. Jinsoul missed her, truly missed her but she didn't know how to get her back. The rules were strictly being followed by the both of them.

They would come and go separately on the few dates they went on. There were no calls or face times only short texts in the morning and at night rarely during the day. Jinsoul never went back over to her apartment even though she was never asked. There had also not been anything sexual...not even tension. She was starting to get worried by the expression on Sooyoung's face when she would look at her. It was so empty. Like she was in deep pain but Jinsoul was afraid to ask.

Jinsoul thought that after those few moments over the holidays, they would go back to normal. If anything it was the opposite of normal. It was like she had imagined all the moments they had together. She had dyed her hair again and it was no longer platinum blonde but more of a dirty blonde almost light brown color. Sooyoung hadn't noticed, though Jinsoul shook her head at the thought since Sooyoung hadn't even seen it yet. The blonde started crying every night again especially since Sooyoung wouldn't call her or text her goodnight sometimes.

The only thing that would keep her sane is the photos Sooyoung would constantly post of them. Every day there would at least be three new photos on her Instagram feed. Sometimes it would be a couple shot but most of the time is was just a photo of Jinsoul with the caption being a blue heart. She didn't understand it because Sooyoung would post them without texting her back. One night Jinsoul had a mental breakdown because the woman had posted at least ten videos of her dancing. She was crying because she missed her so much but she was also horny since she did the promise choreo in only sweatpants and a sports bra.

She about called Jungeun that night...to just take her to Sooyoung's but when her sister had come in her room and took her phone away slamming a pillow in her face in the process she could only lay in her bed and whine. Jinsoul couldn't stand being home anymore and finally decided to go back to the dorms to deal with herself. When she was there though it was just as worst because Jiwoo and Jungeun were so lovey and late at night when Jinsoul would be restless thinking about Sooyoung she could hear them fucking each other across from her.

So she opted by going back home and taking the bus to college every morning. Now it was getting close to their anniversary of the day they met. It's almost been six months since she's known Sooyoung but she already knows that she wants to spend the rest of her days with the woman. Just as she was about to pack up to go have her daily crying session in the comfort of her own home and to snuggle with her moomin pretending it was Sooyoung a tall figure approaches her.

As she's packing her notes into her bag she looks up. She only sighs out, "oh hey Johnny." The guy gives her a friendly smile, "Hey Jinsoul I like your hair." She giggles a bit at his goofy voice packing in the rest of her stuff. He sits down across from her and stares, "you mind if I join you." Jinsoul thinks to hell with it since she has nothing better to do and nods trying to smile at the guy but it only comes out as a grin.

He's nice company and even distracts Jinsoul from her broken heart. They talk about nothing in particular mostly about school and life. If Jinsoul wasn't so hung up on Sooyoung then she might would even give the guy the chance but she was too in love to ever think about anyone else. Why would she when Sooyoung is literally perfect for her there was nothing she needed more than her. So why was she giving Jinsoul such a hard time right now? Especially after pouring her heart out multiple times. While she's laughing at the stupid jokes the guy is telling her she doesn't notice the person across the room closely watching them.