I Can't Make You Love Me

Chapter 4.

Joseph's P.O.V.
I yelled for Mo and lunged for Cody. He tried to get away, but I was able to grab him before he got away. I threw him into the wall and started beating him. I heard Nate, Sam and John yelling for me to stop, and I couldn't. Sam and Nate pulled me off and John told me to carry Mo. I rushed over to her and before I could pick her up I noticed that she was bleeding, in more than one place. The back of her head, her stomach, and legs were cut up. It was unbelievably hard not to kill every man here, but I knew she needed me more. I picked her up bridal style and yelled to the boys, "I'm taking her to the hospital!" Sam yelled back, "Go, take my car, we'll take care of him." And with that I ran out, put her the back seat and drove her to the emergency room.

Once we got there, the nurse yelled for a doctor and said, "I'm sorry sir, but you will have to wait out here until she is stable." I didn't bother arguing because I knew that it would do no good. After about an hour of waiting, Nate, Sam and John showed up and were waiting with me. Another two hours passed and the doctor finally came out. "Are you boys here for "Mo F?" "Yes," we all said in unison, standing up. "Well, she did lose a lot of blood, but she will be fine. The back of her head wasn't hit hard enough to puncture the brain, but she will most likely have a concussion for a while. We bandaged the cuts on her stomach, legs and arms. But we also noticed something else, so we ran some tests. But I can only share this with family or significant other. Is one of you her boyfriend?" The boys all looked at me, wanting me to say yes so they could know what was wrong, so I nodded. The doctor pulled me to the side, but the boys stayed close enough to hear. "Well the tests we took confirmed this, Mo was pregnant, and was for about 3 months, with a boy.
However, the abuse she went through caused her to have a miscarriage. She was also raped multiple times which also led to the miscarriage." A wave of remorse washed over my face and I looked down at my feet.

"Oh, I'm assuming that you weren't aware. I'm sorry sir, would you like to see her now?" All I could do was nod, and he directed me towards the room. John, Nate and Sam stayed behind in the waiting area, so I was going alone. He stopped in front of her room, "she is breathing on her own, but we put a (nose) tube around her head until she wakes up." "Thank you," I said shaking his hand, and I took a breath before I walked in.
Mo was lying on the bed, cold. I pulled the chair up next to her, sat down and put my head in my hands. I looked up at her and grabbed her hand, "I'm so sorry. You've been suffering for the last 10 months with a guy who hurt you for 7 of those months. I should have checked up on you, I should have called, stopped by to see you. But I didn't, I was so stupid to stay away from you."

At this point, I was crying. "I only stayed away because I thought that you were happy with him. But I wanted you to be happy with me. I would never have hurt you, and I never will. If you only knew how much I love you. But I can't make you love me." I stayed silent for a few moments with my head down and then I felt my hand being squeezed lightly. I looked up at her again and her eyes were open. "Did you hear that?" I asked nervously. She nodded, "I woke up a few minutes before you came in. So yeah I heard that," she said chuckling on that last part. "I'm so sorry Mo, you have no idea-" I started but she cut me off, "Joseph, you don't have to be sorry. I was the one who started all of this. I thought I could have handled him, but I couldn't. I did the wrong thing and he blew up at me. I should have left him the first time be hit me 7 months ago." She was clearly upset, because she had tears coming down her face, but she started to wipe them off as she saw the boys coming in the room. "Hi guys, I should have known, you three weren't too far behind," she said smiling. "Hey babes, how are you feeling" Nate asked. "I've been better" she said struggling to sit up. "The doctors said that you're going to have a concussion for a while" John said. "Yeah, I figured. Oh can you guys find my doctor, I have to talk to him." "I got it," Sam said before any of us could and ran out the room. The doctor came back in and we left so they could talk. Nate and Sam went back to my house to get her some clothes and John went to get us some food from down the street. Once the doctor was done, he came up to me and told me that she was all set to leave.
I walked into her room again, and she looked at me like I had 2 heads. "Mo, are you okay?" "The doctor told you, didn't he?" she said already knowing the answer. "Mo-" I started but she cut me off, "Joseph, don't lie to me." I lowered my head, "yes, your doctor told me." She nodded, "Because you said that you are my boyfriend." Shit. I kept my head down, "I had to know what was wrong." Mo walked closer to me and grabbed my hand, "Joseph, I didn't tell you everything last night. The reason he was drunk, the reason he tried to kill me, the reason he had all those guys hurt me: was because I was pregnant."

Mo's P.O.V.
Joseph's eyes widened as he looked up at me, "why was he so mad that you were pregnant? I would have been so happy if you were having my baby...uh...I mean...continue." What did he just say? "By the time he found out, I was 3 months along, and he lost it. Yelling at me saying that he didn't want a kid and that he would kill me if I didn't get an abortion. But by then it was too late, I waited to long and he stormed off. I expected him to just go out and get drunk. But, I was wrong. He came home hammered and then started choking me on the bed, so the only way I could get away was to hit him." I finally confessed.

Joseph finally knew and all he said was, "Why didn't you tell me?" "I was too scared to tell anyone." I said stepping away from him, and sitting on the bed. He walked over to me and sat down next to me. "Mo, you know that you can tell me anything. I would never judge you. But I know you're lying to me." Dammit, he knows me too well. "Well I...I...uh..." I started, but I saw Sam, Nate and Joseph walk into the room. "We brought your clothes and food" Sam said. "Thank you guys. Let me just change and I'll be right out."

We all went to Joseph's house and I noticed that none of them asked me any questions. I took a shower and when I got out, I overheard the boys talking in the kitchen. I didn't want to intrude so I stood behind the wall, out of sight. I heard Sam speak first, "why didn't you tell her?" "What was I supposed to say. Hey Mo, I know you just lost your baby with your abusive ex-boyfriend, who also tried to kill you, but will you be my girlfriend? No, she's been through enough today. I'm not going to stress her out. I already slipped out that I love her and would have been happy if she was having my kid instead of Cody's." Joseph admitted. "You what?" John asked. "He has a point," I heard Nate say and my eyes went wide. "Dude, she's Joseph's, always will be" Sam added. I smiled at the thought of being Joseph's. Little does he know that I love him too, he flat out told me that he loves me. I tried so hard not to jump into his arms and kiss him in the hospital. I've wanted to be with Joseph forever, but Cody knew that so he never let me leave.
And that was the reason he beat me.

As I stood there thinking, I didn't realize that the boys had stopped talking and were walking towards the living room, right next to me. I didn't have enough time to move, so when Joseph came around the corner, he walked directly into me with eyes wider than the Pacific Ocean the second he saw me. Shit.