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"You never even spoke to him? Do you even know what really went on?" My voice was raised. I was pissed off.

"Y/n, we had to do something quickly. Sungchan was caught actually physically hurting someone and so we needed to get him off of media for a while." One of the staff members answered.

"That man was being a fucking asshole and he deserved it. If everyone knew what happened then they would understand and even praise Sungchan for what he did. He doesn't deserves to be punished for this, he did nothing wrong and he's hurting and now he can't even do what he loves because of it."

"Well no one knows what went on. You told us that you didn't want to confirm your relationship with Byungho and we accepted that and so this is the best outcome we can give you."

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[riize_official started a live video.]

It's been an hour since I lashed out at the staff who made the Instagram post declaring Sungchan's hiatus. Here I am now, live on that same Instagram to clear his name.

Comments flooded in, half saying hi and the other half talking about Sungchan.

"When I was 16," i started, not even bothering to greet the fans. I started this to help Sungchan and that's all I'll be doing. "I had my first relationship."

Everyone knew who it was, the comments confirmed that.

"BHLemons. Lee Byungho." I saw the few hate comments, people telling me I'm a terrible person for leaking his name.

"Byungho and I dated for just under 2 years, all of this happening not long after my debut in NCT."

"Lee Byungho was born in 1996, he is 27 years old." I didn't have to clarify much before they started putting it together. "At the time he had told me he was 18 and I believed him. Our relationship was messy, he was rude at times and then switched up as if he was most perfect... boyfriend ever."

It was hard to say the boyfriend word on live. Especially when I was referring to the man that left deep scars in my life.

"Byungho and I dated for 637 days, on the last day of our relationship my mother had found out about our relationship and discovered that he was actually 21 years old."

The comments were full of upset fans, a few of them saying they saw something like this coming.

"I hadn't seen Byungho since that day. Not until the photos of us kissing were leaked on the web. I know who posted the photos, I've known for a while now but was too scared to confirm our relationship to call him out.

He had been watching me ever since we broke up, we dated while I was in NCT so there was no way he couldn't have known about me being an idol.... Saying this now kind of hurts, I don't know if anyone pointed this out- I never saw anyone pointing it out- but Byungho claimed to not have known I was an idol despite me having debuted at 15.

Not long before the photos were leaked, Byungho had run into Sungchan in public, he mentioned knowing me and introduced himself. Sungchan had gotten a call from me during their chat and as you guys already know, Sungchan, Shotaro and I often call each other baby and so that's how Sungchan had picked up the phone. I don't know he why so jealous of the one word but he was and released the photos in hopes of splitting Sungchan and I up. This actually backfired on him and kept me in the same group as Sungchan. Byungho is the reason I moved from NCT to RIIZE."

A comment caught my interest, one singular person saying the words "the BHLemons channel has lost 40k subscribers since this live show has started". It made my heart clench, people believed me. My story was finally getting put out there and people will know how shitty of a person Lee Byungho is.

"Byungho claimed to have been assaulted by multiple members of RIIZE since this whole ordeal has started. The story from the convient story wasn't fully accurate. It was Eunseok, Anton, Sohee and I, the Eunseok part was true, but it continued because for some reason he thought it would be more effective to lie about Sungchan being there and saying the things that Eunseok had actually said. And I never laid a hand on that man, not ever since we broke up. But he was saying mean things, something along the lines of me having liked it when he was rough with me."

I didn't even try stopping the tears from falling. Saying all of this at once kind of emphasized how badly he has hurt me throughout the years.

"Anton was the one who punched him. But it was for a very valid reason and Byungho deserved it. I'm thankful I have friends who are willing to stick up for me in times like this. Anton was not in the wrong and no matter how badly I want to say violence isn't the answer, I can't."

I paused for a moment.

"Now I know you guys are probably wanting context on the whole Sungchan situation, and that's the whole reason I started this live. Sungchan doesn't deserve to be put on a hiatus for defending me. Byungho blackmailed Sungchan about a week ago. He said if Sungchan gave him 10,000,000 won then he would leave me alone. Sungchan took the horrible deal and Byungho didn't keep up his end and came to our dorms unannounced. Sungchan was already pissed off at that fact and then Byungho made an very bad remark that I don't feel comfortable repeating. Sungchan punched him for a reason, that reason being that Byungho is a criminal, he's not only a groomer, but also a manipulator, and abuser. I don't want anything to do with him anymore, I'm happy with how my life is and I don't want to allow him to fuck it up again.

I was scared to confirm it was me in the photo because I was scared of how you guys would see me if you knew I was gay. But if telling the world I was gay prevents my best friend from hurting anymore, then I don't really care if you guys know I like men."

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Imagine coming out to the whole world as gay just so your best friend(boyfriend) wouldn't get punched in the face again