famous boyfriend // han jisung

chapter five 🔞

a special goodbye

mari moans, throwing her head back onto the couch as jisung attacks her neck with sloppy kisses. his hands holding her waist tightly, as if he was afraid she would run away if he didn't hold her there. he tasted her skin on his lips, and reveled in the small satisfied breaths she made. taking in each and every way her body moved and reacted to even the smallest of his touches. he didn't want to forget a single moment of this.

mari was desperately trying to focus on the way he touched her, and not that this would be the last time. the tears never stopped falling, but she was able to focus on his touches as his hand slid up the hem of her shirt, fingertips dancing over her soft skin.

"you're so perfect..." he compliments, lips grazing her skin as he cupped her breasts in his hand. mari moaned in response, her heart skipping a beat at his sweet words. she knew it would be hard to leave. and she knew doing this wouldn't make it any easier, but she couldn't bring herself to stop it. "baby... are you with me?" jisung asks softly. he didn't want her mind to drift to what was going to happen to them after this. he wanted her in the moment.

mari weakly nods, though she wasn't totally honest, jisung didn't need to know that. to distract herself, she grabs his face, pulling him into a kiss. jisung could feel the tears on her cheeks, and it broke his heart. mari reaches her hands down, fumbling with jisung's pants, slowly pushing them down his thighs. she needed a bigger distraction, and she knew only one thing could really make her mind blank. so she shimmies jisung out of his pants, pulling her own down shortly after.

"baby... slow down." jisung whispers, he wanted to savor the moment. not wanting to start too soon, because he knew he wouldn't last long. and once it was over. it was over. and he simply wasn't ready to let her go yet. call him selfish.

"jisung... please..." her voice was shaky as she begged for him. and unfortunately, he was a sucker for her, and couldn't stop himself when she gripped at his hips, urging him to give her what she wanted. he slowly pushes in, a low groan leaving his lips as he bottoms out, loving the way she felt around him.

"baby... i want to take my time..." he bites his lip, pulling out painfully slow, before pushing all the way back in. mari moaned, feeling every inch of jisung fill her up with each of his torturously slow thrusts. she understood his slow movements, and she wasn't entirely against it, so she laid there, moaning as jisung took his sweet time with her. making sure to feel every little clench, and twitch that came from her as he bottomed out over, and over, and over.

jisung's eyes never left her teary ones. it was as if he was memorizing every feature on her face, and every crevice of her body. and admittedly, he was. trying to savor every bit of her to memory. he wasn't sure when he would see her, or if he would. the future was completely unknown for them, and he hated that. he hated even more how he couldn't seem to do anything about it. despite his slow pace, their climaxes were building up. and jisung wanted to stop when he felt his hips shake slightly, his release threatening to spill into her. he held back, keeping his steady, slow pace.

it pushed mari over the edge as she cried out in pleasure. gripping onto the couch as she clenched around him. jisung bit down on his lip hard, not ready for his own release yet as he held back with every bit of self control he had. he completely helped her ride out her release, feeling a bit of relief when she finally stopped clenching around him. but he had been holding back for a while now, and he simply couldn't do it any longer. with a frustrated groan, he fills her up with his load, dropping his head to the crook of her neck as he fucked out every drop of his release.

"damn it..." he croaks, a sadness laced in his tone that broke mari's heart even more. their moment was over, and it was time to leave.

"i... i'm really sorry... jisung..." mari cries, running her fingers softly through his hair. as much as he hated it, he understood the reason for her decision. and he would respect it, no matter how much he disagreed with it.

"i know, baby... i know..." he nods, slowly pulling out of her with shaky breath. "i love you so much. please never forget that." he whispers against her lips before pressing a bittersweet kiss to them.

"i know..." she couldn't bring herself to say it back. yes she loved him, so much. but she was afraid that saying it back would do neither of them any good. she was afraid that saying it would cause her to change her mind, but she couldn't do that. she knew that she at least needed to spend time away from him. no matter how much it hurt.

tears fall from jisung's eyes as she doesn't say it back. but he couldn't blame her. he couldn't even blame her if she hated his guts. he made the worst decision of his life, and he had to pay for it. so as much as his heart protested, he climbed off of the couch, pulling his pants back on. he looked down to mari's form, she too had pulled her pants back on, turning away from him as she cried into the couch. his heart ached as he held back from cuddling into her, whispering sweet nothings in her ear. and it took everything in him to turn around, and leave the apartment.

he could practically feel his heart crack as the door shut behind him.

"god fucking damnit..." he curses, wiping the tears from his cheeks. he then pulls his phone out of his pocket, texting quite possibly the last person he wanted to text right now.

kim hongjoong

take care of her.

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and with that, he leaves the complex with a broken heart, and tear filled eyes.