"So what did you need to tell me that it was so important for me to come here?" Michael asked and I put my head down again and shoved my hands in the pockets of my jacket. I took a deep breath before looking at Michael. "We had sex the night we met. Didn't we?" I asked and he stoped and his cheeks went from pink to pale. "Yea we did." He whispered. I felt the tears start to form in my eyes. "M-Michael... I-I'm preg-n-nant." I cried and hid my face in my hands letting the tears fall even more than before. I watched as his jaw fell open and grabbed his hair tugging on it. "Really?" he asked and I nodded and pulled the stick with the two pink lines out from the pocket of my jeans and handed it to Michael. He took it and looked at it before smiling. "That's great." He said and at that moment my anger and sadness blew a fuse. I threw my hands up in the air.
"Michael I cant be fucking pregnant! I dont wanna be! I dont want no little thing growing inside of my stomach." I screamed at him. He looked at me "Why dont you want kids?" He asked. "I dont want them to end up like me. Im so fucked up." I cried to him. "Your not fucked up Hunter." He said and I nodded my head. "Yes I am Michael. Im so fucked up. I fucked up my life when I was 12. Ive fucked up everything I ever lived for. I can't even take care of myself. How do you expect me to take care of a baby?" I asked with my lip quivering and tears falling down my cheeks. "You couldnt have messed up your life at the age of 12 and you still have lots of things to live for." Michael said. "I set my house on fire when I was 12 by accident. I was playing with a fire cracker and it shot the wrong way and went through the livingroom window and caught the whole living room on fire! My parents couldnt get out! I killed my parents." I said as I began to cry worse. "Ive been put on so many mediactions I dont even know how many I take anymore. I've been fucked over, raped and beaten in and out of foster homes for 7 years! I've been a foster child for 7 years." I yelled and he was speechless.
"Hunter. I'll help you take care of the baby. After all it is my kid too." Michael said and I looked at him and shook my head. "I dont want to have this kid Michael! Im only 19 years old. I dont want it to have all the problems I have." I cried and he came closer and wrapped his arms around me. I stayed the way I was hands covering my face. "Everythings gonna be alright. Just think what you would feel like after you get an abortain or give that baby up for adoption? You'd feel shitty. Trust me I'd know." He said and i looked up at him as he stared down at me. "How would you know?" I asked. "When I was 16 my mom got pregnant again and at 4months she got an abortain and she was so sad for the next few months after that. She blamed her self and asked why she did it. It was the worst pain I saw her go through." He said and I laied my head back down on his chest. "Im sorry...Mikey." I whispered as I wiped my tears on his shirt. "I know you are. You're scared. So am I." He said. We stood like this for a bit before he looked down at me. "Let me help you take care of this baby. I'll help you get through this pregnancy." Michael said and I nodded. "Only under one condition though." I looked at him and pointed my finger at him as he nodded. "We can not fall in love with eachother. We can go places and make apperences together like couples do. Just we cant fall in love with eachother." I said. "Okay." He said and we let go from each other and began to walk back to the cabin.
When we were almost there I stopped him. "Mikey, are we gonna tell the boys together? My friends already know." I said and he noded. "They might freak out a little but they will be okay. I hope." He said and whispered at the 'I hope.' part. I took a deep breath before we walked back to the cabin together. I opened the door and stepped in to see all the boys and Haleigh watching Forest Gump. When they heard the door open they all looked back at us.
"Hey Haleigh,Cardo and Sky can we talk to the boys alone please?" I asked them and they nodded and walked outside. The boys were already sitting down on the couch and I hid behind Michael. He looked at the boys and then pulled me out and stood me by his side. Man I dont even wanna be here right now. I just wanna be 12 years old again with my mum and dad. Damn it! I miss them. "Guys this is Hunter. Hunter you must know Luke,Ashton and Calum." Michael said I did a small smile as they waved to me. "So Michael what did you wanna talk to us about?" Calum asked. I breathed in heavily and exhaled remebering what my theripist taught me. Michael looked at me and waited till I nodded.
"Do you remeber about a month and a half ago we went to that nightclub called 21 and I had my eyes on this girl." Michael said and they all nodded. "Well this is her and that night we went back to her place and she's pregnant." Michael said and one by one their jaws dropped. "Michael... Do you know what Adam is gonna say about this? He's gonna flip the fuck out." Luke said and I began to feel guilty and I went and hid behind Michael. "I know that. Im not gonna tell him yet. But I'm gonna be here for her. Hunter as complications about her and her life and she doesnt think she can do this I can do this on her own so Im gonna help her through with this." Michael said and I started to feel a little bit better but worse at the same time. The boys looked at me hiding behind him. "Are you too like a couple now?" Ashton asked. "No, we are just friends with benifits. But we did agree to go out and be seen as a couple but we are not gonna fall in love with eachother." Michael said as he smiled at me. I faintly smiled back. "How is that gonna work? I bet in the time until the baby is born one of you will fall for eachother." Luke smiled at Calum and Ash and they nodded.
"Guys cna you not say that we are going to fall in loe with eachother. Please. Hunter doesnt want to fall in love and blames herself for alot of shit that happens to her." Michael said and backed me up as if he understands me. "What happened? Did her parents die or something and she blamed herself for their death?" Calum asked and tears instantly sprang to my eyes. Most people know that my parents died and when someone menchines death or parents loving them I cry.
I had enough so I ran to the bedroom and laid on the bed and cried. I didn't even wanna be here right now. I wish I would've never told Michael I was pregnant with his kid. I just should've kept it a secret and got an abortion. He never would've known. Why always do the worst things happen to me and no one else? I've been so good. Well Ive tried to be. I haven't lost my temper with anyone and Ive been trying to hang in there. No one understands the way it feels to have lost both of your parents at the age of 12. I didn't mean to do what I did it just happened. I didn't mean to start the house on fire. I really didn't. I blame myself for their death even though everybody told me it wasn't my fault, but I know it is. Im not stupid. If I wouldn't have played with that fire cracker they would still be here and with me then I probally wouldn't have all these problems I have now. Im on so many medications I forgot how many I take. There's Depression, Anexity, Anger, Anorexia, Insomnia (Insomnia is where you only get 2-4 hours of sleep each night and sometimes none at all.) Paranoid Personality Disorder (Paranoid personality disorder is a mental health condition in which a person has a long-term pattern of distrust and suspicion of others, but does not have a full-blown psychotic disorder such as schizophrenia.) Also many more that I cant remember that's only part of it. I don't like the way I am. I'd do anything to change who I am or what I look like. To be honest I don't think Im beautiful or special. I know I'll never be okay again.
I never really knew what it was like to have parents in my teenage years. I was constantly in and out of foster homes every too much. It got to the point where I got to know the workers names at Foster Care. That's pretty bad. The reason why I was in and out of foster homes constantly is because I was getting starved which is why I have Anorexia, Foster parents smoking illegal things and being drunk all the time, beaten and at least at four foster homes I've been in sexually touched. I know that you don't think something like this would be hard to get over but it is. I've never known what 'love' is. Im 19 years old and I know I still have my whole life ahead of me to find love but Im scared to find it. I don't want it to be like how my life was growing up as a child. I just started to finally get my life back in order after graduating collage at 18 and my birthday passed shortly after. I went into the English major to become a 6th grade English teacher or an author for teen's books.
I know I'm not going to be able to take care of this baby even with Michael. I mean he's in a famous band called 5 Seconds Of Summer and I know his manger is going to go crazy when the boys tell him. All the fans will probably bombarded me with dm's (Instagram messages) and tweets, I'm not ready for all of this. What about when he's on tour? I'll be stuck home alone taking care of our baby girl or boy. I mean sure I've thought about having kids but not at this age. Maybe when I was 22 or 24 not 19. This is going to be so-
My thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the door. "Hunter its Michael, can I come in?" He said. "No, go away. I want to be alone." I said and he didn't listen and just came in and shut the door behind him locking it. I stayed facing the wall and I felt the other side of the bed sink in and I knew he was lying in bed by me. I felt a strong arm warp around my waist and pull me closer to him. I was still crying and he buried his head in the back of my neck. "It's all going to be okay. I promise and we are going to have the best baby boy or girl in the world." He whispered in my ear.
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