You, Me, Forever. [Narry]

One Last Time

I was an idiot, I was a fucking idiot.

I lost the love of my life 2 years ago because of a stupid fucking mistake.

But I take full responsibility for it.

I'm the one who decided to go and fool around.

Making out with one guy and sexting another.

I never wanted him to get hurt.

I never wanted him to have the look of heart break on his face.

His beautiful face.

I want him back

I need him back.

But I won't get him back even if I tried.

He moved on.

He's with someone else now.

He's happy with his new lover and I can't ruin that for him.

"Niall?" I heard his familiar voice.

"Harry." I whispered.

"How are you mate?"

Mate? I'm suppose to be your boyfriend, the love of your life.

And I was, until I made that stupid mistake.

"I've been through hell without you Haz."

He gave me a small smile.

"Everything will get better mate, I promise"

"No it won't. You don't understand how guilty I feel. I was a liar, I know it. I know I should have fought it, the urge to be unfaithful. I'm a failure, because I failed you. I promised to hurt anyone who ever hurt you, and the one that ended up hurting you was me. And I know, you're boyfriend gives you everything, everything I couldn't give you. And I know that you've got everything you've ever wanted now, but I've got nothing without you. I am nothing without you. I just want one last time to be the one who takes you home after a Romantic date, just one more time and then I'll let you go and you can live happily with you're boyfriend. I don't care if he's the one you have in your heart right now but all I want is for you to wake up in my arms just one last fucking time"

"Ni.." He whispers as tears threaten to fall down his cheek.

"I don't deserve another chance, I know I don't deserve it, But stay with me a minute and hear me out. Can't you forgive me? At least just temporarily. I know, trust me, I know that this is all my fault. I shouldn't have done anything I did. And H, I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry Hazzy. I mean that."

He stayed quiet for a moment.

Then he started to walk closer to me until we were only inches away from each other

My breath hitched.

"Ni.... NiBear. You know I love you,"

I smiled at his words,

He smiled back and sniffled.

"But I can't give you that chance. I can't take the risk of giving you the one last time you want, and have me fall back in love with you. I'm happy now, and I really love him, and he loves me too, and I don't want to mess that up. I'm sorry Niall."

I feel him wipe away the tear that fell from my eyes.

"I get it H, and trust me I don't want to mess that up for you either."

I sniffled and quickly wiped away the tears that I shed.

"Can I at least give you something?"

"Sure. I guess."

I reach down into my pocket and pull out a small square box and place it into his hands.

"Ni, what is this?"

"It's the ring I was gonna propose to you with." I whispered.

"Niall I-I can't take this."

"Of course you can, I want you to have it. And give it this boyfriend of yours. If he makes you this happy, the happiest I've ever seen you, then he's a keeper and I want you to use it to propose to him or as a promise ring. I don't care. Just, tie him down."

I sniffled once more before saying,

"I love you Harry Edward Styles, and all I ever wanted was for you to be happy. And I see that you are now."

I lean up and kiss his cheek

"Tell your man, he better treat you right, because if he doesn't not only will he regret it, I'll kick his ass, because you're the most beautiful, goofy, loving, caring, loyal, and faithful person ever. And if he loses you, it's a huge loss. Trust me, I know from experience.... Goodbye Harry."

Those were the last words I said to him before walking away and sobbing.

I ruined it.

I lost the best thing that ever happened to me.

And there is no one else but me to blame.