All Used Up

What Happened

I was happy to see that Charlie was enjoying himself with me, only to back away after his phone went off. I probably jumped the gun a little bit, I just couldn't resist him, it was like my control over my brain just disappeared. I was so shocked that I couldn't even respond to him before he ran out, he just told me that his jackass of a boss needed him and then he put on his coat and ran out.

As soon as I managed to pull myself together, I ran out of the room looking for him, he was downstairs lost in the crowd of the party with his boss following him close behind, and I tried to yell for him, but he couldn't here me over the loud music. When he left, I tried to follow him, but by the time I was out front, he was gone, I was tearing up, crying for a boy that I think I love, I sounded so selfish that I yelled at myself.

"Where the fuck did he go! did I do something wrong, did I ruin our friendship."

I was walking home when I remembered that he told me where he lived, well not exactly where, but he told me that he lived in a penthouse owned by his boss. Knowing that guy the building is probably really nice and lavish looking. I arrived at the nicest hotel in town and was about to enter when a doorman stopped me.

"sir this facility is at max capacity, and we're closed to visitors for the night."

"Please let me in, the man I love is in there."

"Which room?" he muttered to me, he was just doing his job, so besides that he was pretty chill.

"the penthouse sweet." I had told him and he looked at me with disbelief, then realization.

"Yes, sir I will deliver a message." He goes to his desk and picks up his phone.

"Charlie, sir a young man is waiting at the door."

"Jason, my name is Jason." He nods at me.

"A young man named Jason is here sir." He nods and hangs up the phone."He will be down shortly and sir, if you are here for confessional reasons, he sounded flustered when he heard your name, I will leave you both to talk alone." I nod and thank him for understanding the situation. The elevator dinged and the doors parted, there he was, he was beautiful in his fuzzy coat and boots.

"Hey, Jason... why are you here." He spoke to me with a low and husky voice, almost as if he was dead inside.

"Hey, Charlie, are you ok?"

"NO! What the fuck Jason, I- I thought th- that you were different but nope, here we are; you aren't done with me so you're here to finish what you started."

"What?!"

"You were going to fuck me back at the party, weren't you? you had a plan this whole time, just break down my barriers so you could get with me for free, well news flash, either pay or back off!"

"Charlie that's not what I was doing." I was panicking, he was putting words in my mouth and now I'm just scared not of him, but of losing him.

"Bullshit, whole bunch of bullshit."

"Please let me explain..."

"Alright then."

"Charlie, at the party I was drunk, and yes I admit that was my fault, but what I did was because I- I have- *sighs* I have feelings for you, I am in love with you, and I wasn't trying to use you, I just loved you in the moment."

"wow... that was shit, hahahahahaha! but props to you for the emotion in your words, trust me Jason, you love me? please I've heard that lie before..."

"It's not a lie, Charlie."

"The fuck it isn't, you don't tell someone like me you love them just out of nowhere"

"Charlie... let me prove it to you.. that I love you.."

"Ok, what the hell why not-" I kiss him and he immediately flinches but he isn't resisting. He closed his eyes and wrapped his arms around my neck and kissed back. I did love him and in this moment I realized how much.

"Uhm" he pulls away and breathes heavily. "That was a lot of proof but I think you should leave."

"Wait what?" I was confused I thought he was convinced but I guess not.

"It's not you, well for him it is you, but my boss is here and I don't think he likes you."

"Well fuck him, I want to stay with you." I hold Charlie, Bridal style, and walk to the door.

"Have fun you kids." the doorman waved goodbye to us as we left. When we were outside, the white Limo decorated with Bronze-pink hearts arrived. I put Charlie down and let him talk.

"Hey, Char Char you're coming with me.."

"Where?" Charlie asked him as if he was a child hiding a snake and told his mom about it.

"All the way to Hawaii, it will be perfect for the summer season and I need someone who knows how to make me-"

"I get it, I get it, alright how long?"

"A year."

"What!?" I gasp with shock and disbelief.

"It's fine Jason. I'll get my stuff alright, keep the car running."

"Wait, sir you can't just-"

"Shut up whatever you are." Charlie's boss says to me.

"Oh, you motherfucker!" I was pissed at his boss for trying to shoo me away as if I was his pet.

"Jason stop!" Charlie yelled at me before I tried to punch his boss

"But-" I was dumbfounded, why was Charlie defending him?

"I'm going ok. goodbye." He stops and kisses me, and that's when I knew he was going to come back and love me entirely. He leaves me in that bastard's car so I just stood there, praying that he'll be ok. It's only a year, I could survive, but not without him.