I love you, No Matter What

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Priya was still recovering from the accident and surgery she had had. With Ram having lost his memory of her and Pihu, and his family back to their old tactics - She was really really concerned and in a Hurry to help him recover.

She had found a way to become his assistant and was becoming a part of his life again - but it was slow going and not only mentally but physically taxing as well. She needed to go in for some followup checkups since the accident and the doctor informed her that they want to do a Pregnancy test. Some of her physical symptoms were telling. She was terrified - How is this even Possible? "DOCTOR, last time I was intimate with Mr. Kapoor was just before the accident - Even if I did get pregnant wouldn't we have found out during the surgery?" " Priya, since you are saying just before it's possible your body conceived the fetus after the surgery, Either way lets do the test and then assess the situation.

Priya was gripped with Fear, She had done this before - had a Baby without Ram, She couldn't do it again. The thought of a pregnancy also catapulted her into a spiral of flashbacks. Her brain went back to the emotional turmoil she went through the last time. How it was to be pregnant in prison. circumstances were not ideal. There was one Jailer who had it in for Priya, who did everything she could to torment her. She was asked to do things that were not okay for a pregnant woman to do - Heavy lifting, Working long hours. She was not given all the Food she was entitled to . Hormones and all of this plus the baggage of everything that had gone down - Priya decided that Pihu shouldn't be with her after her birth. She didn't want the "shraap" to affect her child.

Even though there were provisions for her to raise Pihu in the prison system, she was sure she couldn't do that. Krish was her support system and he agreed to care for the baby when they arrived.

Childbirth was painful, Terrifying, beautiful, and isolating all at once. She was so scared of rubbing off her bad luck on Pihu, She saw her child from afar and refused to even hold her. She was handed over directly to Krish. Her heart was heavy because she knew Ram wanted a baby so badly, Specially this one who looked exactly like him.

Even though she could have met Pihu frequently - she didn't want her child to associate to this life.

She had 18 More months in Prison - And she dealt with Post Partum Depression. She thought of ending her life a few times, but she knew she had to figure these feelings out. Even though her emotional mind wanted to keep a distance from her daughter, She still yearned for her baby. Krish met her regularly and showed her pictures of Pihu and her growth.

In these 18 Months Krish and a Prison Counsellor Managed to help Priya process her feelings to some extent that by the time she got out of jail she was finally ready to meet Pihu and atleast try to be her mom.

Priya's thoughts were spiralling out of control when the Doctor started calling out to her.

" Priya, Hey - Your basic test results are in and ... you are pregnant."

Priya was reeling from this news, Her heart was beating so fast in her chest and she started feeling claustrophobic. "This cannot be possible - I can't do this again. I can't. I won't." Priya just got up and was ready to get out of the clinic - but the doctor saw that Priya was not taking this news very well. She immediately gave her a glass of water and handed her a ice Pack. This helped control her stress and helped her snap back to reality.

"Priya, you know you have options right? You are a parent - so you know how this goes. Your file also mentions that you suffered with PPD last time, infact I hear you were asked to talk to a Counsellor soon after your last pregnancy as well. Talk to me if you need to and we will come up with a plan to help you work through whatever you need. No judgements alright."

Priya was a little speachless, but knew right now she neede to go near people she loves.

The doctor however did not let her go home alone and insisted on Priya giving her a number to call a friend or someone. Priya gave Krish's number.

Krish came to the clinic and saw Priya sitting in the waiting room with streaks of tears down her face. He walked upto her and When Priya saw him, She immediately hugged him and broke down. He was the only one who somewhat knew how tough things were last time. No one, and I mean No one was aware and she didn't want anyone to know how tough it was for her.

Krish hugged her and comforted her and let her just cry.

Once she calmed down a little, Krish offered some words of encouragement, "Priya I know this is scary, But I promise you this will not be like last time. You will have Ram with you.He will be back - I'm sure. Just see how fond he is of you and Pihu already. Even without knowing you'll are his family. He loves you despite having forgotten who you are. I think that's a big win, Don't you think? And About PPD, We can talk to a Psychiatrist, We know you are prone to it - But last time circumstances were also so much more different which could have been Major triggers. We will talk, Work out a preventative plan, and once we have all the information - You can decide how you want to proceed. I am here for you - No matter what. You were not alone then but you have so many of us with you Now. And I am Sure Ram will be here to help you through as well."