Demons
We hide
Them when
We are together
But when we
Are behind
Closed doors
The demons
Come out to
Play
My sanity
Is falling
Apart. Scattered
Apart
Six petals
Six lost
Friends
I will join
You soon
The guilt of
Stolen innocence
Like The crushing
Of a new-sprung
Flower.
I hate this
Please give me
No excuses
I know it was
My fault
For being me
I made myself
A target.
Someone just
Took advantage
Of me All I ask
Is did you enjoy
Me?
Even when we
Are together
I am no longer
Truely there
We were all so
Carefree
Trusting
With the naivety
Of youth
Clambering
On dormant
Trains
Leaping across
We were all so
Innocent
I need you
I hate this
I hate you
I love you
I'm sorry
Forgive me
Why do I want
You so bad
When I know
You will
Hurt me?
The demons
That plauge
Me are the
Thoughts of
My incompetence
My failure to
Protect. My
Failure to
Be who everyone
Wants me to be
So I drown
Them
In pills and
Alcohol.
Potions and
Pain
I hate my
Weakness
I down bottle
After bottle
Pill after pill
Maybe now it
Will be
Enough?
We were so
Innocent
Running through
Allies and tunnels
Without a care
In the world
The world
Played by
Our rules
Not anymore
And we didn't
Get the memo
I need you
I hate this
I hate you
I love you
I'm sorry
Forgive me
Why do I want
You so bad
When I know
You will hurt
Me?
The demons came
Swiftly and
Without warning
One moment I was
Fine the next
I was not
Like a flame
Dancing in the
Wind that was
My connection
To the world
But you left
So claim some
Responsibility
Gasoline
Spread upon my
Body I light
The match
I will burn
These demons
The flames a
Mimic of a
Happier time
Us crowding
Around a camp
Fire we were
All so guiltless
Not anymore
I need you
I hate this
I hate you
I love you
I'm sorry
Forgive me
Why do I want
You so bad
When I know
You will hurt
Me?
You threw
Me in this
Stupid rut
And now I
Can't climb
Out
I sink deeper
Into this
Depression
But you won't
Help me out
I spirl down in
This whirlpool
Of hopelessness
I remember
All of the good
Times we had
Where did they
Go?
Fireworks
Dancing
Laughing
What happened?
I need you
I hate this
I hate you
I love you
I'm sorry
Forgive me
Why do I
Want you so
Bad when I
Know you will
Hurt me?
My own
Foolishness
Brought me
To my knees
I believed
I was invincible
Picked fights
Never backed
Down
Now three
Against one
I'm so done
Slamed against
Walls
Picked up
By the throat
Hit again and
Again
I should have
Stayed down
But you stroked
My foolish
Pride. Take some
Responsibility
I crawled to
The street the
Laughter of my
Tormenters
Fueling me on
Car brakes screech
But they saw me
Too late.
Pinpricks of pain
Lights before my
Eyes
We were so quick
To trust.
Food fights
Wresteling
What happened?
Where did those
Times go?
I need you
I hate this
I hate you
I love you
I'm sorry
Forgive me
Why do I want
You so bad
When I know you
Will hurt me?
What plauged me
Was that
I could do
Nothing to
Protect you
I comforted
You when you
Came to me
Broken. I made you
Laugh when you
Cried
I was tired
Of sitting on
The sidelines
Doing nothing
I came to your
Place one night
I picked up a
Bottle and when
He laid a hand on
You I broke it
Over his head.
I was so angry
I wanted him to
Hurt to live all
The times
You ran crying
Into my arms
You told me
To do nothing
But last you
Came you could
Barely walk
He would kill
You if I
Had obeyed
You.
I stabbed him
Again and again
You begged me to
Stop. My anger
Turned to you
You bore scars
From his
Abuse got you
Still sided
With him
Against me.
I left him
Dying and
You with fear
In your eyes
Myself I was
Holding back tears
I need you
I hate this
I hate you
I love you
I'm sorry
Forgive me
Why do I want
You so much
When I know
You will hurt
Me?
At first it
Was small
Things to keep
You happy
But when you left
I started bad
Habits
Smoking
Stealing more
And more
I was caught in
A vicious cycle
I couldn't get
Out
I was underappreciated
No one cared to
Welcome me
I was spat on
Critisied
Finally I had
Enough. I
Any to my
Place of
Work and
Torment
Where all
Vechiles
End up.
I dropped the
Cigarette
The petroleum
Ignited
Drifting
In the car
Singing to
The radio
Where did
Those those
Times go?
I need you
I hate this
I hate you
I love you
I'm sorry
Forgive me
Why do I
Want you so
Bad when
I know you
Will hurt
Me?
We have
Found our
Paradise
In the blue
Sky and near
The hot sun
In the white
Clouds the times
Came back
Stolen innocence
Doesn't matter
Near the sea of
White nor is there
Such things as pain
Why did I need you?
Why did I hate this?
Why did I hate you?
Why did I love you?
Why did I want you?
