Pain

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Pain is when you fall down and scrape your knee
Pain is when your childhood pet dies
Pain is when you messed up on something and can not fix it
Pain is everywhere
No matter where you look in the world, it's in every place, and every person
Pain is in you
Pain is in me
We feel pain naturally
Pain could be separated into different emotions
Such as anger, sadness, guilt, and rejection and most commonly known as depression
I love pain
It gives me hope, it makes me feel alive
I rather feel alive than feel.. hollow or empty
I rather never "feel better"
Happiness only feels for a short amount of time
Whether that's excitement, achievement, or just feeling good
It can always go away with just a few short words
Pain is in everyone
It's what brings us together
You have a lot of pain in you
And I despise you for that
You have a lot of good in your life, yet you're still in pain
But so am I
I hate you
I hate you for the manipulation and the toying
I hate you for not getting better and for everything you said
I'm hurt
And i love it
But I also hate it
I can't help you
I want to, and I promise I was trying
But i'm just not good at it
I'm not jealous because i think you like someone better than me
I'm jealous because they can make you feel better than i can
I don't even love you in any way more than a friend
But I felt you
I felt her too
But it was just a sick mind game
I hate how i can not help you
I'm supposed to help everyone
Why can't I help you?
Is there something wrong with me?
Probably is,
I mean, you said so yourself.
Pain is when you have to let go of what you couldn't fix.

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