My Co-Worker Hates Me

Chapter XII

KINN'S POV.

I spend all week trying to focus on work, but couldn't help feeling that Porsche hasn't showed up to the office because of me, and I don't know why. Also, why do I feel kinda guilty?

I try to recreate our last conversation and pinpoint where I could've messed up.

We went jogging; he joins me occasionally to jog after work, he's a very active man so he doesn't have an issue with it, we would get something to eat after our jog (either at my house or in the street) and we would finally go our separate ways or I would invite him to stay the night. Can't be that, we didn't even manage to get dinner.

After we jogged, we sat on the bench at the park and talked for a bit. I try to make memory of what the conversation was about. If I remember right, we discussed something about a strategy we had to come up at work, but we didn't even had a relevant discussion about it, we were agreeing more at job stuff now so I don't think it's about that. Porsche also told me about Vegas and Pete and how they're dating now. I told him I often feel judged by Vegas when I speak with Pete and he laughed and told me he felt the same way. I teased him with how I also felt judged by the same Porsche whenever I spoke to Pete in the past, he got all red and shy and hit my arm lightly. I don't think he got mad about that, I tease him all the time, he never takes things too seriously.

Then, Porsche told me about his ex, and how she made a scene when she saw Porsche with his mom at the mall, because she thought Porsche's mom was his lover. We laughed a lot.

"My mom is very young and beautiful so I kinda get her, but c'mon..." He said, cleaning his eyes from the tears that shed from laughing too hard. "She had some nerve to be such a jealous woman and then she was the one who cheated on me." I burst out laughing with him.

He started talking about how his mom never approved of her and how Chay wasn't interested in meeting her. He told me stories of his mom and brother and that's when he offered I should meet them...

That's it.

Right? I remember I felt awkward when I first heard the idea and when Porsche added I would get along with Porchay, immediately jumped and said it wasn't a good idea.

Porsche left, not even a minute after I said it.

But I'm confused. Why didn't I notice my way of reacting to such a mundane idea could be so harmful? Also, why did I even react like that? I'd be totally okay meeting his family, right?

Maybe not, I think.

I think that maybe the issue is Porsche and I could stop hooking up anytime, and meeting his family wouldn't be good for him, or myself. I've only once met my partner's family, she met mine but we still broke up cause she cheated on me.

I cut ties with my family for Saengdao, who later ended up thinking of me as not good enough to keep. I wouldn't want for something to similar to happen to me and Porsche.

And anyways, it's not like I like Porsche that much, right?

Well, if I don't like him that much, then why am I in literal hell since I last saw him?

***

I work in automatic for two weeks and on Saturday I decide to finally ask Pete for Porsche's address. I just need to see him and get my questions answered.

But Pete didn't want to give me the address, no matter how much I tried to convince him.

"I'm sorry, I can't." Pete says on the phone, after not believing I was actually the one calling.

"Pete, please..." I beg.

"I'm sorry, no." He says firmly and then adds: "and I know you'll find a way to talk to him so I just want to give you one advice: listen to every one of his reasons and think very carefully what you want from him." Pete definitely knows much more than I know myself.