STRANGE

Queens 2

Oh! (ouch!) This is embarrassing!, I cried and pulled myself up, off of Brooklyn who I caged with my long legs seated on her tummy trying to get ready to respond to her when the moment came to admit that she likes me. But unfortunately it turns out that she doesn't like me at all. I stood out of her way and about to leave the room devastated, but, Brooklyn caught my arm and pulled me close to her, too close that I couldn't breathe, only hearing her heart beat and her harsh, hot, minty, sweet and tasty breath exhaling and inhaling all over my face and neck. She pinned me on the wall next to the sofa in the living room.

Brooklyn was about to kiss me on the mouth when she stopped, thought of something and placed her down trodden look and forehead to my shoulder, then, breathed again. To my dismay, she kissed my cheek and forehead. Now more ashamed than ever, I almost tried to prepare my lips but she's just teasing, again, so I had to slap her once, twice and pushed her with all my might. This made me feel like a grandmother, a friend and a failure. Maybe, I'm not her type or I'm just not good or pretty enough for her compared to her sexy, rich, model or slut girlfriends she has or will have. I turned around, tears falling down my face now....I hate you more now than that first time I saw you! ( which is not true, the more I feel like I hate her, the more I am falling in love with her. And the feeling sucks. I wanted her, the more she refuses me and now I blew it!) I thought to myself as I left Brooklyn in the author's room.

I just wanted to say that I like you Vanessa and maybe I love you!. I prepared the heli, this room and a dinner date later at Hilton Hotel. Would you want to come out with me tonight!, what I said aloud when Vanessa already left mad and sad because of me. I did it again. She hates me, now what?

I just want to protect you from my Uncle, our group. I can't risk it. Being with me is like a ticking time bomb, I can't afford to lose you, because I love you, more than my life, more than life itself!!!!! Haaaa...., I shouted sobbing as loud as the hall can ever take the sound, but Vanessa wouldn't hear what I have to say because she already gone and maybe for good. How pity. I think I am really destined to be alone!

As if Vanessa heard a loud cry from somewhere and a painful thug hit her heart, which made her flinch. Her heart is bursting not with happiness but gloom and loneliness. She thought she had it with Brooklyn but she's wrong, dead wrong.

I hate her! (but my heart says "I love you". My mind is advising me to be careful of my heart) But how?

I gave out my best smiles and hugged my fans, followers and clients, producers who wanted to make my book a film someday soon. I wanted to talk to them about the proposal but I'm not in the mood to negotiate especially when Avery isn't here to help me with the contracts and all.

Is it okay to do this some other time. I really had a rough flight. I will stay here for the rest of the week to answer your questions. I think management has decided to do a conference and a training or seminar on writing and becoming the best author you can be in the future in the succeeding days. I'll be one of the speakers for the said event. So, see you there, okay, guys! I love you! Good night!, is what I can only say since my mood from cloud nine begin with Brooklyn earlier went down to ground zero when she told me I'm not her type. Then, I'll make myself her type. Fuck her! You'll see. You overgrown, senseless, selfish, mother fucking bitch. You will beg for me and my Venusss!!!!, I said the word venus too loud at the hall that my fans and followers stopped their talking and all since we're having a short break with some tea, coffee, booze, with picka-picka cookies, chocolates, ice cream and other snacks. Ahhh!!! sorry, Vveeerryyyy happyyy...I mean, I am Vvveeery happy to see all of you guys and thank you for coming to my book signing. See you all in the next few days for the extension of this special event, I added shyly and confidently, thus all clapped their hands and shouted, congrats, good luck and we are happy for you!!!!

Thank God for ad libs and my alertness!!!! Whew!!!, I told myself while smiling at the cameras flicking from cellphones and one or two television show and announcer/reporter for Milan I think.

Vanessa didn't know that Brooklyn is just moping and looking from afar trying not to cry with how happy Vanessa is with her kind, her fans, followers, people. I could never fit into the normal world, I could never fit into her world, never!