Since Phil found out what was going on with Tommy he had been all over him. He made sure there were no sharp opjects in his arm reach , he made sure there were enough bandages and medications for just in case scenarios and he also not put a lock on the medication cabinet. And that all just to make sure Tommy wouldnt try to kill or hurt himself.. It all made him wish he hadnt told him , but he knew he had to.. or else he wouldnt live till Christmas and he knew that. He knew that if he hadnt told Phil then he would do something he would later regret , he was scared to even break his own promise.. his promise to stay here a year. And that also meant he had to life till the end of March , he was hoping he could.
"Phil.. can you stop?.." Tommy sighed as he looked to the floor. He was sitting on his bed and Phil was making sure there were no hidden sharp objects for the third time now. Phil looked over to him from the closet and closed it
"Sorry Toms.. i just- i dont want you hurting.. you know?" He asked softly and walked over to Tommy , kneeling down infront of him and looking right into his eyes
"I get it.. it's just- i told you to help me , to make sure i wouldnt break my own promise!" He started , tears starting to show "not-not for you to control my room- or , or to control my everyday move from now on! i dont want that.." he whispered the end , tears threatening to spill.
"Okay.. okay.." Phil said "What do you want me to do? how can i help you without making you feel bad or anything?" He softly asked , standing up and sitting down next to Tommy now
"Just.. talk to me.. and be there for me.. i dont want you to trust me less with a knife or anything just because i feel like shit!" He explained "I dont want any of you to take away a knife im holding to cut my food , because i may feel like i cant live anymore but i wont just stab me or anything as i make my food!"
"i get that tommy.. i just dont want you to hurt yourself or so" Phil sighed "promise me to come to me or the Twins when you are hurting. When you think you cant be by yourself , when you even just look at an object for too long okay?" he looked over to Tommy , pinky finger out for him to hang on. Tommy took a deep breath before nodding and linking their pinkys togheter for just a moment.
"good.. now , why dont we go to the twins and watch a movie in the livingroom huh?" Phil softly asked and Tommy was quick to agree.
Five minutes later they all sat in the livingroom watching TV , Wilbur was sitting on Tommys left side and to Phils right and Techno sat on Tommys right. Tommy moved his head onto Technos shoulder , he slowly lifted his arm and wrapped it around Tommy - gently holding him - as Tommy got comfortable
"Thanks tech.." Tommy whispered
"of course Thes.. everything for you.." He whispered back. Wilbur looked over at them and smiled softly before returning his attention to the TV.
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It was that evening that Tommy did what he hated. Everything had been fine in the afternoon , after watching the Movie he took a walk togheter with his friends and their dogs , they went to an animal friendly cafe and drank hot chocolate togheter before they eventually had to leave and Tommy decided to go into the supermarket before going home aswell. He got some candy and a coke for his low blood sugar when suddenly a karen had yelled at him for being unhealthy , making him uncomfortable. The cashier of course helped him and in the end he got a panic attack in the middle of the store , the Karen was escorted out and he was lead to the side and someone helped him calm down. When he was back to himself he gave them his phone to call Phil ,he of course was quick to get him. He was worried and all , Tommy was glad he was there for him and everything was okay after but now?
Now here he was. In his room , debating to take the pills or get help. "you're a worhtless piece of shit! your a waste of space!" the women had yelled at him.. and it kept repeating in his head , over and over again. Tommy started taking pill after pill , tears fell down his face and when he had taken the eighth pill he stopped. He stopped and looked at the pills he still had in his hand.. He knew he had told Phil about it all just the day before.. so why was he trying to end it now..? and before he could stop himself ,he yelled
"Phil! Techno!! Wil!!" He cried , he let the bottle of pills fall and gripped his hair. The door flew open , all three of them stood there with worried expressions and Techno was the first to run over to him when he saw the bottle
"Tommy , hey hey" He softly said "how many did you take already?" He asked the crying tommy , slowly getting his hands out of his hair
"ei-eight-.. i-im so sorry-"
"no no , it's okay.. it's okay.. You- you'll be fine, i promise" Techno firmly said before turning to Phil and Wilbur "Wil go call an ambulance , tell them to be quick and that he only took eight pills but it already really out of it. Phil please go get some hair ties or someting while i go to the bathroom with him , i will try to have him puke it out already" He quickly explained , leaving no room to argue and picking Tommy up.
He ran to the Bathroom with Tommy , let him down by the toilett and held his hair "tommy try to get yourself to puke it out or i will have to help you , sorry that i'm so demanding right now but i need you to puke it out." He said , Tommy didnt answer , instead he swayed to the side "shit!" Techno cursed just as Phil and Wilbur came rushing to them
"FORGET THE HAIR TIE ; WHERE IS THE AMBULANCE!?" Techno quickly asked , picking Tommy up again who was already not answering anymore.
"lets go out now! They'll be here in a few minutes!" Phil answered making room for Techno to run out with Tommy before running after them with Wilbur. Wilbur was already crying , being held my Phil.
"T-tech?.." Tommy mumbled, his eyes were half lided and Techno was quick to look down at him
"Hey-hey , the ambulance is on their way.. they're almost here so hold on." Techno said , tears were now leaving his eyes. Tommy coughed and quickly moved his head away from Techno as he suddenly puked "good- good" Techno sighed with reliefe , it was good that Tommy was puking the pills out.
The ambulance quickly arrived , they took Tommy and told them only one could drive with them. The others would have to drive after them. Techno looked over at his Father and brother before looking to Tommy - who was in the ambulance slowly breathing and getting taking care of - he frowned and looked back at the other two
"Excuse me? He's asking for a Tech?" They suddenly heard someone call from the Ambulance
"You go with them , we'll drive" Phil said , already walking over to the car and pulling Wilbur with him who was quick to agree.
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Phil was worried. Really worried. He had told the Twins to take a walk after they had gotten told Tommy was stable , he didnt want to overwhelm Tommy so he promised to tell them when Tommy was ready.
"Mister Watson?" A nurse called , his head shot up. He quickly stood up and walked over to her
"Yes , thats me" he said "is my son okay? How is he!?" He asked worried sick , the nurse chuckled
"Don't worry , Doctor Kristin is with him and he asked for you" she smiled at him , he sighed out of reliefe "you can go to them , she will tell you how things will go from here" , he quickly thanked her before walking to the room Tommy was in. He slowly opened the door to see Tommy laying in bed , eyes half lided and looking over at him.
"Da..d.." Tommy mumbled , he was quick to go over to Tommy and held his hand in his
"Hey.. hey son.." he sniffed "i'm so happy your okay" he whispered , he gave him a soft kiss onto his forhead as his eyes closed. Phil then looked over at the doctor in the room
"Sorry miss.. just- happy hes okay" he said making her chuckle
"Its okay , i'm doctor Kristin" she introduced herself "Tommy is perfectly stable now , he's a little bit ouf of it because of the meds but give him about three hours and he will be back to normal. We will have to talk about seeing a Therapyst" she explained with a small smile "he told me he doesnt know what came over him in that moment where he took the pills , or well he tried to tell me , he was a little out of it but i understood him"
Phil looked over at Tommy and sighed "he.. he told me about his Depression yesterday.. i didnt think he would try to leave today... or ever" He sniffed and whiped his tears away.
They talked some more about help for Tommy before she eventually left him alone with his youngest. He quickly messaged the twins to let them know he was with Tommy now and how tommy was doing before holding tommys hands again and waiting for his youngest to wake up.
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Tommyinnits first good christmas!!
FanfictionTommy had been staying with the Watsons since March , so since nine months. Everything had been crazy for him so far , he got things he never got before, like love , people who listens to him , people that understand him , and he even had friends an...
