suicide // c.h

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Morgan POV
As I took my last, shaky breath, I closed my eyes.
This was it, I thought. I'm about to die.
My life hasn't been the easiest thing. My dad left me, my mum and my brother, Kieran, when I was 2. 15 years ago.
My mum has been through a lot. When my dad left, my mum became heavily depressed. Kieran, who's only 4 years older than me, was forced to take care of me for a few years. He was 6, raising his little sister as if she was his own.
On my 9th birthday, my mum came to find us. We were reunited, and I finally had my family back.
Distruction came when I hit 14. My best friend, Jack, killed himself. We always made a promise, if you go, I go. It was when he died that I became depressed. I'd go out late at night, sometimes not even returning and waking up in some random persons bed.
You're probably thinking negatively of me already, its true, even I'm ashamed of my self.
I turned to alcohol and drugs when I was 15, and was influenced by the complete wrong people. I even ended up in hospital due to it.
My boyfriend, Luke, is possibly the only person who cares about me. If that.
So I guess this is it, finally I get to leave all this negativety behind.
Here goes nothing.
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Calum POV
It was windy in Syndey, which was a change. Usually, it was sunny.
I was strolling along the street, just finishing my shift at Starbucks, whistiling along to blink-182 blaring out my headphones.
As I passed the pharmacy, I remembered that my mum has asked me to get some tablets for her headaches shes been having recently
I entered the shop and the bell chimed loudly, causing an older woman to look up at me, smiling sweetly.
I returned the greeting, and headed off to the tablet section
Lost in my thoughts, I bumped into a girl, who looked like she had been crying. We made eye contact for a splut second before she looked down, nudging pass me.
Her mascara was smudged down her face, and her hair was up. She was still extremely beautiful to me.
She looked like a piece of art.
I blinked myself out of these thoughts, and carried on looking for the tablets.
As I looked around, I noticed the girl had dropped something, a letter of some sort maybe?
I wanted to read it, so so desperatly. But, should I?
Without thinking, I ripped open the letter, and started to read.
"Dear mum, Kieran, Luke, whoever reads this.
Firstly, I'd just like to thank you three so so so much for putting up with me for the past 17 years of my life.
They havent been easy, they've been a living hell. So, i've decided to do the right thing.
I'm going to kill myself.
Now, before you stare at this piece of paper with your mouth gawped and your eyes wide in shock, just know its for the best.
My life, to me, hasnt been the best. I havent enjoyed much of it
Mum, I love you so so so much. Thank you for bringing me onto this beautiful Earth, but I guess its not so beautiful anymore, huh? Please, PLEASE don't turn back to how things were when dad left. I don't know what would happen to Kieran, and I don't want to think about it
Kieran, you've been the best brother I could ever ask for. You will complete college, you will get an amazing job and start an amazing family with your beautiful girlfriend Emily. Please, just
look after mum. Make sure she's okay, make sure she's eating, not drinking alcohol, keeping fit. Please.
Luke, what can I say?! You've been the best boyfriend I could ask for, and you mean the world.
This may sound selfish, but I'm doing whats best. You've been there for me from the start, and its all I can ask for.
Please, also do one thing. Move on. Move on from me, don't spend your days crying and thinking about me. Go out and get a girl who makes you happy. Because you really deserve it.
All of you, please just don't sit there and gope around about this. Move on. It's for the best, and I think we all know this.
I love you all so so so much, and don't forget about me!
Love, Morgan x"
Without thinking, I darted down the street, following the mysterious girl to her home.
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