Can we love person and not gender?

Sorry shubie

- ISHAN'S POV -

At match i was trying be strong i know shubie can see my pain but dont know its not the wound thats hurting me but words of that man that hurts me i did not tell them whole thing he said to me i know its very personal maybe thats why

Flash back

Bowler : you know i pity shubman how he is gonna get his fame down world would hate him because of you poor guys career would end his dream he will sacrificed all for a pathetic person like you tsk i know your dating him just for fame you arnt a talented player so thats were your getting your fame from i hope shubman such a talented player wont go waste because of you
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End of flashback

Maybe he is right thats what i thought whole time i am being treated i know he deserve better like sara i wont let him kill his dreams because of pathetic person like me no never i want best for shubie and i am worst for him i would break up i know it will kill us but its for him after being treated i came out of room i saw shubie coming to me i wanted to hug him and cry but no i have to be strong for him so i pushed i hurts if i looked at him i might not able to break up so i went to my comfort zone who will protect me no matter what my rohit bhaiya after shubie i always seek comfort from him i hide in his embrace and said with a heavy heart so shubie would believe me
Ishan : shubman we should break up i am tired pretending loving you

I know if i said i fell out of love he will never believe me he knows me too well but if i reasoned him our friendship i know he will take that i know he will never force me in relationship and i know he wont ask why i hurt him i hurt all when rohit bhaiya and virat bhaiya got disappointed and angry at me i felt so horrible he was right i am not qualified to be in ict i will withdraw my name tomorrow i just wanna go home where mom would embrace me atleast and say its ok ishu i am with you i need it but i know here no one will be that person to me other then my mom its not there fault its mine i hide truth its my mistake i am coward i sighed and went to other room i know now no one wants me .... I came to my room and layed down but i cant sleep not without cuddling then i scolded myself
Ishan : come on ishan dont be a jerk now you have get used to it you lost him you hurted him he know hates you

I laughed at that wow i am such a mess huh i think i officially lost my mind i couldnt sleep so i got up and sat on bed suddenly i felt so much pain in my left shoulder i touch my wound to my surprise it was bleeding heavly i clutch my wound so blood wont flow much i got up but then sat again who would help me now they hate me they wont care but it is hurting like crazy i could not bear the pain i was sweating crying walking here and there trying to lower the pain but nothing its just 5 in evening i cant take pain i sat in corner holding my shoulder just like that night passed my pain was increasing i lost too much blood i felt dizzy i could not sleep a wink because it hurts like hell i was surprised how death has happened the blood i lost i should be dead by now but god wants me to suffer for hurting shubie it was 12 in morning or afternoon i could not see anymore with my little senses i saw shubie and all infront of me saying something but i could not hear then shubie asked how long have been bleeding since last night i lied cause that will anger but still he slapped well i deserve that then he picked me up i was losing my senses i can feel its hard to breathe i dont think i can make it so i said sorry before darkness took over me

- SHUBMAN'S POV -

We came to hospital they quickly went to operation to stop the bleeding i was crying feeling my i lose my whole world if something happened to ishan i would die too plz i can handle being separated but i cant handle if something bad happens him
Virat : dont worry shub i know his strong he wont leave us
Shubman : i am scared so scared i will die without him plz why cant no one understands what i am feeling
Rohit : cause its really hurting us to be anyones shoe right now