Baby girl, lately you have been on my mind a lot. You are barely turning two next month and you have already been through more than I can imagine. I remember when I first heard you were coming into this world. I remember how mad and disappointed I was in our father and your mother. They were not good for each other. They hurt each other constantly and hurt all of us as well. They didn't realize the damage they were causing until we acted out. I remember starting to warm up to your mother being strung to my family forever because of God's gift of your life. I remember sitting in my room and thinking about how it would be when you were brought into this world. I thought of all the worst things. But oh lord how wrong I was. When Tammy gave birth to you it was like a temporary antidote to the complete chaotic world we called home. Seeing you for the first time brought warmth and security and i was so happy to have another little sister. You have 3 older sisters and 2 older brothers who will always love you, as well as two parents and countless family members that would do anything for you. I sit and think about how unfortunate your life is for you. I can't imagine how you will be when you grow up. I'm praying things work out for you and our brother and sisters. Me and your oldest brother are safe now. But it is my mission to save you and our other two sisters and brother. I have made it my new journey to make sure all of you come back to me. I want to be in your life forever. I can't let your mother take you away from us. I can't let her take any of you away from me. Because you will always be my little siblings. It kills me now missing months of your lives. I wish I could just take you as my own. Although, your mother used to be a mother, she seemed to do anything for her wonderful children, but now I'm not sure if she will realize what she has done. I can't believe she let herself fuck up that bad to lose all of her beautiful babies. To lose me, and your oldest brother and our father. I don't care if our dad and your mother were never married. We were a family and it was all I could ask for. Sure, it was loud and annoying at times but baby girl, you changed everything for better and for worse. Losing your mom and barely seeing your dad and older siblings will definitely hurt. I'm not going to lie. The things our parents put you through will haunt you your entire life. I never thought I could be more disappointed in her. "I need you."
