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𝘏𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘧𝘪𝘭𝘭𝘦𝘥 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦

   There it is again.

That dream.

It's him. He kisses my lips, He hugs me throughout the night, He loves me...

Not the girl beside me in bed.

No.

But him.

Why him?

She hugs me just that little bit tighter as he runs his hands down to my thigh...

The feeling of his hand... I know it's not real, it's not there, but it- ...

It feels right.

I love her, but... Him?

Someone? Anyone? Please...

Explain this to me.

Please.

She kisses my lips, she hugs my stomach...

I feel like crying.
...

"Allison, Babe, get up please? I have to go to the bathroom..."
I mumble out quietly, gently pushing her off me and replacing my body with a large pillow as she grumbles sleepily.

Soon I find myself trying to... Well, research.

I type and read article after article...

Until I find something that makes sense to me.

"B-Bi... Seg- sexual...?"

The word is foreign, yet I feel like I've heard it time and time again throughout school.

Uttered by so many people...

Somehow, this word?
It feels...
Right.

But then, how do I go about this?

This is the first time since I've moved back into town that I haven't been confused, or frustrated.

I felt...
Almost-

Freed.

But, would Allison still like me if I told her...?

Maybe she'd be understanding...

Or maybe she'd leave me.

... Naaahhh, why would she leave me? That's- a little stupid to think about.

Right?

... Right?