Last First Kiss [ EDITING ]

Chapter Twenty

I fell to the ground, my hands pressed against my face. I was so scared, the boy I'm in love with might have just killed someone.

All I could look at was his body, just laying their not moving in the middle of the street. I know what he did to me was wrong but he didn't deserve to die. He was only like a year older than me. Wouldn't his mom miss him or his dad, what would they do if they found out he was dead.

I looked up at Harry. I could see the pain and the guilt in his eyes. I slowly stood up and walked over to him. I stood in front of him and grabbed his hand, gently rubbing my small fingers over his knuckles were their was blood.

" Harry are you okay? " I whispered. He didn't move or anything. He was frozen.

" Harry..please talk to me!? " I softly whispered. I guess he noticed because he quickly looked at me. I could see the tears forming in his eyes.

" I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt him that bad, I just wanted him to feel the way you felt. He deserved it, I panicked and I couldn't stop " he started rambling.

I brushed my fingers over his cheeks " shhh it's okay don't worry " I tried reassuring him.

I looked over to where Alex was as I saw something move out of the corner of my eye. It was Alex, he was moving. I pulled Harry behind me as I watched his movements. Harry watched him as well.

He slowly stood up and turned towards us. His face was covered in blood. A smile crept onto his face as he looked at us. He slowly pointed his finger towards us.

" you will pay for this " he whispered.

He then turned around slowly and walked down the road, like nothing just happened.

Harry pulled me back to his car and we drove straight to his house. He sped most of the way which was pretty scary.

After we got inside we both ran upstairs to his room and cleaned ourselves up. He gave me some of his clothes to put on as he changed.

" are you okay? " Harry asked me as we sat on his bed. I nodded slowly.

" yea I think I'm just a little shocked " I whispered back.

" oh yea what did your mom say earlier.? Before I picked you up, why were you so upset? " he asked.

I looked down at me fingers and slowly rubbed my stomach as I thought back to my conversation with my mom before everything happened.

How she wanted me to do that horrific thing to get rid of my baby.

" well everything was fine until she told me that I should get rid if the baby " I looked up at him as I told him.

" she told you to do that? But why? " he asked.

" I'm not sure but I know that there is no way that I can have an abortion. I know what he did and I know this is because of him but I can't change that " I felt him kiss my forehead gently and wrap his arms around me. I knew he would understand. He really loved me. If he didn't their is no way he would be here now.

I wrapped my hand around Harry's neck and pushed my lips against his. I felt him pull me closer as I wrapped my arm around him.

He slowly stood up as he continued to kiss me and climbed on top of me gently. As he hovered over my body pulling my leg up to his waist and slowly kissing down my neck. I felt shivers go down my spine, this moment felt so right, I wanted him and only him. I had never really done this, before that night happened I was a young girl who had never been kissed by anyone besides my mom. I wanted to experience it the right way and I knew I could do that with Harry, he would really be my first and I wanted that.

I felt his lips graze over my skin, I started feeling butterflies as I felt his hands gently pull up my shirt exposing my stomach. I felt my heartbeat race faster and faster. My breath shaky as I tried to keep my breathing calm. I guess he noticed because he pulled his lips from mine and looked at me.

" I can't do this babe. Not now. You've been through to much. I just think we should wait. " he whispered as he climbed off of me and stood up.

I sat up and looked at him. He didn't want me. He's not ready. I rushed things, why am I so stupid.

" I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that, I just..I'm..sorry " I whispered. That's all I could get out, I didn't know what to say.

" don't be, you did nothing wrong. Trust me I want to but we need to be safe for now and just wait. It's to soon to be doing this. I don't want to hurt you. " he said as he sat next to me again.

" can I tell you something? " he asked slowly.

I looked at him and nodded.

He took in a deep breathe and grabbed my hands.

" you have been through so much and I promise to always protect you no matter what. You are the most important thing in my life. And for as long as I wanted to say this I have always been to scared..

Anne I love you with all my heart and I am never leaving your side, I will always be here for you " he whispered.

I felt the tears forming in my eyes as I took in every word.

" I Love You too Harry " I whispered back.

He leaned over and softly kissed me.