●{~Chapter Nine~}●

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by FoxieeYT

by FoxieeYT

Hi! Again, sorry for not updating, I am having a lot of struggles with life currently so I'm gonna start updating with small chapters, sorry.

(TWs: Profanity, Crying, Breakdowns, Panic, Worry)

(Jake's POV)

I pulled away from the kiss and looked at Johnnie, he looked embarrassed. He got off of me and walked away. I sat there staring at nothing, contemplating if I had just ruined our friendship.

After 10 minutes I decided to get up and get something to eat, I walked to the kitchen and saw Johnnie on the couch, I walked over to him and sat next to him.

(Johnnie's POV)

I was zoned out on the couch staring at nothing when I felt the couch dip. I looked to my left and saw Jake. I froze, oh god. What does he need? I am insanely nervous about this, I don't wanna ruin our friendship. This is horrible.

I don't know if I should stay or go lock myself in my room. But I know if I do that then I'll have another stupid depressive episode, and I don't want that, but I'd rather forever be in a depression episode then ruin my friendship with Jake. I don't fcking know.

We've been sitting in silence for literally 20 minutes. I think I should go to my room. Right as I tried to stand up, Jake put his hand on my thigh, I immediately got flustered.

(Jake's POV)

I could tell Johnnie wanted to go to his room, but I don't want him to have another depressive episode. He moved a bit and I knew he was going to stand up and walk to his room so I put my hand on his thigh. He got flustered immediately. He's so cute, wait, what? Do I like him?

"Johnnie.." I started, he looked fearful. "Y- yeah..?" "Are we still gonna be friends?"

silence.

(Johnnie's POV)

"Are we still gonna be friends?"

Oh god. "Uh- uhm.. y- yeah..? I hope so.." I sounded so fcking nervous. Oh god oh god oh god I want to go to my room and fcking calm down but I can't I want to but I won't let myself.

I move Jake's hand off my thigh and look down. Okay, step one, done, now for step two. I stood up, and walked to my room. I shut and locked my door, sat on my bed against the wall, holding my knees to my chest, and broke down.

I don't know what to fcking do.

SORRY FOR NOT UPDATINGGG!!!

(425 Words)
12/20/2023