Begin Anew {Cole Walter}

Chp. 6

Holly's pov

In the morning at school Cole was his normal self he was at my side but I wasn't there he was talking to a random girl so I decided to zone out as he rubbed circles on my back with his thumb in what was supposed to be a relaxing motion but it's only making me more anxious because I want to talk to Cole about last night and he keeps on making excuses not to talk about it but yet he always find a way to be close to me weather his hand is on my shoulder or he's holding my hand or has his hand on my back. That's when I start getting annoyed because he chased and chased me and now that he has me it's like I don't exist. I knew it this is why I was hesitant boys like the chase but when it comes to actual commitment they are useless. I start walking away to my locker to 'get ready for class' but really i just couldn't watch the boy who tried so hard to get me flirt with some random girl right in front of me. Cole must notice im gone and comes to find me because here he is at my locker smiling all innocent like he wasn't flirting with someone else he must see my face isn't smiling and asks "hey, hey, whats wrong?" "nothing" he looks at me disbelieving. "You keeping secrets from me new york?" "no its nothing" "ok he leans down to give me a kiss but i turn my head so its on my cheek. He looks hurt as he says "oh thats whats wrong, i see. you regret it" "what no, if anything the opposite." "what do you mean the opposite if you really felt the opposite why are you dodging m kisses" i finally snap "because i just had to watch you flirt openly with another right in front of me." slamming my locker i storm out only stoping once to see the shock on his face. 

Later alex and i are playing catan at monty's when cole comes in and asks if he can play too i want to say no because its been hours since the hallway and he still hasn't come to me to talk or even apologize. But alex happily agrees and i get an idea if cole can flirt i can too. So the entire game im out right flirting with alex and he's flirting back... oh god he does like me. I start doubting this plan but it makes cole jealous i can see it so i continue. Five minutes in cole starts being a toddler and changes the rules and makes sum bullshit 'this is the wild west' crap till eventually he declares he wins and i get up and leave.

Im sitting in my room waiting to go to the bonfire when i heard a knock on my door "come in" i say when cole walks in i regret it instantly "im studying so say what you have to say and leave." he laughs before replying "if i had know beating you would be this fun i would have played your dorky game ages ago." i get frustrated but say "you didn't win you cheated and you didn't seem to think it was dorky when you were bragging about or shares earlier." he hops over my bed and starts fiddling with the stuff around my room. So i say something i know will hurt "i know about you and paige and alex. Im not getting involved in whatever feud you have going on. I know alex likes me and i know you know it so how am i supposed to feel when you chased and chased me then once you got me stopped caring." he gets mad and walks off right as he leaves the room i mutter "thats what i thought"

Later we all pile in the station wagon to go to the bonfire cole behind the wheel so i make a point to sit as far back as possible and right behind him so he cant see me. Alex sits next to me and starts talking about cole interrupting our game and how he was sorry and i say "alex don't i know you like me but i don't like you so please stop trying." he looks down and moves up a row i look forward to see cole smirking. shit i should have waited till we were out of the car to do that.

Im sitting at the bonfire drinking beer and listening to the music thinking about how my life got so messy. When cole asks if we can talk in private im not sure its a good idea but agree anyway.

He pulls me aside from the fire to a place in the parking area where there were no people when we got there he doesn't let go of my hand and say something surprising "i know i messed up flirting with the girl this morning especially because you were there, not saying it wasn't wrong when you not there but... Ugh you know what i meant. Anyways watching you flirt with alex today it made me feel awful and i realized how you must have felt every time i flirted with someone which was a lot and i realize that i basically left you this morning and it wasn't fair of me to have gotten mad that you dodged my kiss but i never meant to make you feel like i didn't want you or that it was something to do with paige and alex. It never did i promise, please forgive me" i look at him with tears in my eyes and say "why chase me if you were just going to ditch me? This is why i was hesitant, because boys love the chase but once they get what they want they stop trying and it hurts to go from feeling wanted to not being cared about. You did that cole and i know i haven't told you much about my life in New York but it happened there too and i told myself it wouldn't happen again and it did ok. it hurt, it hurt so so bad because i liked you a lot." by the time im done im crying like really crying. I haven't done that in a while, not since my family's funeral. Cole pulled me off to this rock formation that didn't feel to far away but i couldn't hear the bonfire anymore. We sat down as i started to control my tears but they were still very much so there. Cole says gently "i had no idea you felt like this." "well i dont like to talk to much about me" i say trying to lighten the mood failing tremendously. Cole looks at me seriously and says "i want you hell when you told alex to stop trying i wanted to come back there and kiss you right then, i want you so bad" "you mean that?" he nods "i really like you i do but i can't be an afterthought once you have me again." "you won't be" "you promise?" uncertainty is very clear in my voice "yes" i kiss him again this time its sweet and gentle.

As we walk back to the bonfire he grabs my hand making me feel light and bubbly inside. He must see this because he smiles at me and pulls me into his side wrapping his arm around my shoulders. When we reach the bonfire alex eyes us looking upset we watch a round of beer-pong when cole calls out "me and holly got next round" he lets go of me to go get drinks. A few minutes later i hear a commotion behind me i turn to find cole on the ground, i rush over push alex back it doesn't take much to figure out that alex had punched cole. I pick cole up and take him home. When we get there his mom asks what happened i look at cole and he says "i plead no snitching" she looks at me as i say "im basically one of them so i plead no snitching." she frowns "fine" i take cole to the bathroom and examine the cut and bruise on his face asking him to pass me the cleaning supplies. i start cleaning the cut and i have Kathrine go get some ice for the bruise. After im done he looks at me sheepishly and i ask why alex punched him. He responds with "he made a comment about you and i said no wonder you chose me" i smile at him because it was a funny joke but one question plagued my mind "what comment" "he said that i shouldn't down grade to someone so high maintenance, then i said i think shes perfect thats why she chose me not you. Then he threw the punch." "oh i never would have thought of him like that" "yea he gets like that when hes jealous" with that he kisses my forehead and we head up to bed.

A/N im going to post at least once a day from now on