The time before-

changing ways?

"Jake, did you hear what I just said?". The teacher look down on me and I bit my bottom lip.

No I've X-ed my way out of your teachings.

" detention, Jake sterling!"

Wait I said that out loud? Oh shoot!

Guess I was just too tired to notice.

I sighed heavily as the bell rang and everyone started gathering their stuff as they got up.

School went as normal. Nothing weird.

"Jake? You ok? ".

I turned around and saw Lia. She seemed to be a bit nervous.

" ya I'm fine why? " I answered.

"You seem- well -like you haven't slept in a long time? And you look like you haven't eaten either-".

" I'm fine, Lia. "

"Well would you like to join me for lunch? "

I looked up at her upon that. My stomach certainly doesn't feel like it. And I know I haven't eaten all day, but I feel like once I put food in my mouth, I might throw up.

I shook my head and Lia nodded as she walked away. I walked off to the steps to the rooftop. The only place that I can let out my feelings.

I opened the door and gaze upon the stunning view. What a day, Got woken up from a horrible nightmare, a hooded boy spilled yoghurt on me, the teacher got me in detention for not paying attention and Lia out of nowhere wanted to eat with me and ask how I was doing.

Why can't they all just leave me alone? Or for the bullying to stop? Sometimes I think that it's too much for me to handle. And that's when even more precautions are taken.

Anyway, I shouldn't think about all that now. This place always helps me think. The view is amazing, the birds love it and there's rarely anyone here.

Well I don't see anyone anyway. I haven't done this in a while.

"Telling myself I won't go there
Oh, but I know that I won't care
Tryna wash away all the blood I've spilt
This lust is a burden that we both share
Two sinners can't atone from a lone prayer
Souls tied, intertwined by our pride and guilt

There's darkness in the distance
From the way that I've been livin'
But I know I can't resist it

Oh, I love it and I hate it at the same time
You and I drink the poison from the same vine
Oh, I love it and I hate it at the same time
Hidin' all of our sins from the daylight
From the daylight, runnin' from the daylight
From the daylight, runnin' from the daylight
Oh, I love it and I hate it at the same time

"Tellin' myself it's the last time
Can you spare any mercy that you might find
If I'm down on my knees again?
Deep down, way down, Lord, I try
Try to follow your light, but it's night time
Please, don't leave me in the end

There's darkness in the distance
I'm beggin' for forgiveness (ooh)
But I know I might resist it, oh

Oh, I love it and I hate it at the same time
You and I drink the poison from the same vine
Oh, I love it and I hate it at the same time
Hidin' all of our sins from the daylight
From the daylight, runnin' from the daylight
From the daylight, runnin' from the daylight
Oh, I love it and I hate it at the same time

Oh, I love it and I hate it at the same time
You and I drink the poison from the same vine
Oh, I love it and I hate it at the same time
Hidin' all of our sins from the daylight
From the daylight, runnin' from the daylight
From the daylight, runnin' from the daylight
Oh, I love it and I hate it at the same time".

Sounds erupted from behind me. I jumped out of my daze and looked behind.

"Daisy? What are you doing? " I asked as she continued to appreciate my singing.

"You still has your talent. You're certainly amazing! You shouldnt let anyone tell you otherwise, jake" she said.

I stared at the ground and nodded slowly.

"Things aren't really going that well and I don't want this talent to interrupt anything. Anyway, singing always ruins everything".

"That's not true, jake".

"It is! I lost my friends because of singing! I got bullied because of singing. From elementary all the way till now, high school. The reason why I had friends was because I gave up on singing. It's no use, daisy, everything's the same as it was. Like always... ".

Nothing's new.

She looked up at me slowly and patted my back.

" I know nothing's ever change your mind but fear has two meanings either you forget everything and run or you face everything and rise. The choice is yours....

"Maybe you don't need to let people know you're trying again? Keep it a secret? "

She smiled up hopefully at me as I faced her then I gazed around the place. I nodded before thinking it again.

Things have changed ever since that day. Maybe I need see things from a new light? I don't need anyone to make me happy right?

Happiness depends on myself.

Author's note: Merry Christmas
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Love you guys! Sorry this chapter had to be late. I had no motivation from so many days. But oh well, adios! 👋👋👋