*Under reconstruction* Obsession (Sebastian Sallow x O.C)

Chapter 4 - Answers

"Uhm..."

"Hm?"

"Why are we sitting like this?"

Sebastian had dragged me to the bundle of pillows the four of us have accumulated over the years. Me and Anne had placed them in a corner, almost making a fortress with them. The pillows were enough for all four of us to lay on, sometimes hosting our bodies that were too tired to go back to the dorms. My favourite pink one being the biggest of them all.

Sebastian had placed me between his long legs that were bent to act as my walls. His arms were wrapped around my waist, drawing me closer and his face snugged up in the crook of my neck as I lay my back against his chest.

I could feel his warm breath caressing my exposed skin, covering it with goosebumps.

"I'm not letting you escape this time," he smirked. "I think I've waited long enough..."

His sultry voice had me biting down my lower lip. The urge to kiss him now was making me nervous.

Calm down.

My heart was drumming once more, suffocating me.

I unconsciously fidgeted with my fingers, picking on my cuticles.

A habit that I'm unconsciously picking up.

Sebastian noticed me fidgeting so he took hold of both of my hands, intertwining them with his. He rubbed gentle circles on my palm, calming me down.

"Why so quiet, Sweetheart?" I could feel his smirk growing wider "I thought you had questions for me."

This prick. He knew what he was doing.

"Why me?" I asked first, avoiding the little butterflies I felt in my stomach.

"It was always you." Sebastian's answer caught me off guard making me pause before I asked my next question.

"Since when?"

He thought for a second, his smirk turning into a gentle smile as he spoke "Since the first time I laid eyes on you. I was lucky to be sorted in the same house, become your best friend and watch you grow into the beautiful woman you are now. I may have not realised my feelings for you romantically till much later but, it was always you."

"...Then the other girls?"

He froze. His soothing circles stopped as he stiffened, moving his head off the crooks of my neck. His smile fell off completely "I...they meant nothing."

"So you used them?"

He stayed quiet. The silence was a loud answer. I immediately felt bad for the girls but at the same time, I felt somewhat—superior. Was that bad to feel? To know that—

His hold on my hands slightly tightened.

He was shaking.

Was he scared?

"Athea—I...I know it sounds bad now that you said it out loud"—definitely is!—"but I didn't want to ruin what we had! You were my best friend, I-I couldn't lose you..."

The panic in his voice was heart shattering but it didn't make his actions any better.

"That doesn't mean you should be toying with other people's emotions, Sebastian."

"I know..." his defeated voice accompanied his head that hung low. Too ashamed to look at me.

"Then Violet—"

"—Means absolutely nothing to me." He almost growled "I-I was being stupid in DADA. I wanted to make you jealous...I thought it would help you realise your feelings for me..."