You Saved Me

Chapter 7

I spend the rest of my day up in my room. I still can't believe that I'm living with my idol, or that I'm getting my name changed to Joey Gaskarth. I get on my laptop and go to Pandora. Pierce The Veil radio. I put it on the dresser under the mirror and turn it up. My favorite PTV song came on. Caraphernalia. I get up and start dancing and singing.

Sunshine,

There ain't a thing that you could do that's gonna ruin my night.

(But there;s just something about)

This dizzy dreamer and her bleeding little blue boy,

Licking your fingers like you're done and

You decided there is so much more than me.

And baby honestly it's harder beathing next to you.

I shake.

I brough a gun and as the precher tried to stop me.

Hold my heart it's beating for you anyway.

As the chorus came along, I didn't sing. I couldn't scream. As the song went on, it came to the bridge.

So, what if I can't forget you?

I'll burn your name into my throat.

I'll be the fire that will catch you.

And what's so good about picking up the pieces?

What if I don't even want to?

I break down and sit on the floor, thinking about my ex-boyfriend, Braden. He left me after he saw my scars. We were together for 3 years. Ever since 5th grade. 8th grade, he saw my scars and thought I was a freak, so he broke up with me. I'm so scared to fall in love again because I'm scared the same thing will happen again. I start to cry. Lisa knocks on the door. “Joey? You okay? Can I come in?” I sniff a little bit and say, “Come in.” I lean up against the foot of my bed as Lisa comes in a sits down. She puts her arm around me and pulls me close.

“Awwww. It's okay babe.” She rubs my arm as the tears fall. I never heaved. I only silently cried. The only time I heaved was when Alex found me in the bathroom. “I miss him so much.” I say pulling my knees to my chest. “Miss who?” Lisa says leaning her head on mine. “My ex. He and I were together for 3 years. We broke up 8th grade year because he saw my scars. Thought I was a freak so he left.” Lisa just looks at me and says, “It's okay doll. You'll find another.” “I'm scared.” I say, ducking my head and looking over at her. “There's nothing to be scared about. There's people who will respect you for you.” She says looking down at me. “I know. Thanks.” I say. She gets up and says, “I'll be in the room if you need me.” I nod and she leaves my room.

After she leaves, I get a text from Alex.

ALEX: Pizza's here. If you want some, you can get it. It's on the island.

ME: Thanks. But I'm not really hungry right now.

ALEX: You alright?

ME: No.

ALEX: Wanna talk?

ME: No.

ALEX: Come to the LR

ME: Okay.

I get up and go down to the living room. Alex has a box of pizza, 2 cups and a 2-liter of root beer. “You and me are going to have a little date at the park.” he says. I smile and walk over to him. “What about Lisa? Won't she want to come?” I say standing infront of him. “She wants us to go out for a little while and have alone time.” He says getting up from his place on the couch. “Come on. Go get your shoes on and grab a jacket.” I smile and run to pull on my new Falling In Reverse hoodie and my faded purple Vans. I walk out and Alex has his leather jacket on and is holding the pizza box in one hand and a bag of the soda and cups in the other. I smile and follow him out to his car. I get in the passenger side and buckle up. We drive out to the little park. We park the car, get the food and walk to the chair and table set underneath a giant weeping willow. This day couldn't get any better.