Dreaded Changes {Alex Walter x Reader}

3

Cole Effect

Tuesday I woke up bright and early, for some reason I wanted to better my appearance today it wasn't like me to care so much but something in me felt like it would be the only way I'd feel worthy.  I decided since it was still early I'd walk to school, there was a nice breeze out so it wasn't something that'd be unbearable but truthfully quite nice so I texted Nathan to not bother coming by that I went on my own. 

In class, I sat down but Alex was in that class and he sat and immediately turned to me asking "Why did you not go with us?"

"I wanted to walk was all." I twirled my hair avoiding eye contact.

"Oh.. Sorry I thought- never mind." He half smiled as we tuned in for the lesson, it was a nice class me and Alex quietly joked around and messed with each other but the bell eventually rang and we walked out when a certain new girl caught Alex's attention and he froze, fixed his hair and continued walking to her. I decided I wouldn't walk away this time and so I followed him, they had a very awkward conversation and I felt very out of place so when Alex noticed Cole walking he walked away me following giving Jackie a shy smile and wave goodbye.

"That was painful to watch." I muttered to him.

"What? What do you mean." he asked.

"I mean you were so stiff and awkward around her it's so obvious you like her." I pretend to laugh as I felt as if I stabbed a knife in my own chest.

"Wha- Is it that noti- no.. I don't! I barely know her.." He rambled.

"Yet she's all you notice and seem to care about recently." I shrug my shoulders, picking up my pace to walk further in front of Alex when he grabbed my arm bringing me back to him.

"Is that really what you think?" He asked. 

"Well, yeah." I looked away as we were kind of stopped in the middle of the hall.

"She's not all I notice." He said sternly to me but with such sincerity that it made me turn red as I looked at my feet. Alex I think noticing my shy presence slowly let go turning a shade of pink himself. We continued walking as he dropped me off to my next class. The day went by pretty normal, we didn't see much of Jackie so Alex seemed like his regular self though a bit more touchy, he would hold my arm or grab my shoulder and put a hand on my thigh whenever I said something interesting or funny. Alex offered I'd stay over again but this time I accepted, mostly because my mom or dad wouldn't be home. By the end of the day me and Alex went "home". 

"Alex you seriously suck at this game." I joked.

"Y/N/N, do you serious think I only-" Alex started when he was cut off by Katherine yelling dinner.

The table was quiet, it was a bad silence, one I did not want to be involved in. I instinctively grabbed onto Alex's hand which he accepted. It was silent until Jackie and Cole got home then all of a sudden Alex gripped his hand out of mine and back on the table. I was not getting used to this pain in my chest but then I hear a question to Cole about a prank, I knew this wasn't my conversation to be in so I excused myself from the table and went to Alex's room, to be fair I didn't want to be near anyone because of what happened right before the prank comment. 

Not even a couple minutes later I hear stomps up the stairs, thinking it Alex I open the door to see Cole standing there.

"Cole..?" 

"Y/N.." Cole said anger clearly in his voice, he came into Alex's room with me and he sat on the bed with me and I let him just debrief what just happened.

"And Alex just had to go and snitch? Did he forget ALL about our code.?" He told me.

I scoffed and asked, "Was it for Jackie's sake?" all Cole did was nod.

"I am this CLOSE to just i don't even know, he's been way out of whack he's just like in love with her or something." I angrily tell Cole, my anger turning into tears. 

Cole looked at me with a serious expression, he wiped away my few tear drops, I hated that  I could do this in front of him. 

"He's really stupid for not seeing you and doing this to you without even knowing." Cole said seriously, I looked away but he simply just grabbed my chin to make me look him in the eyes.

"You're great, Y/N" 

I smile at Cole, the silence in the room was turning into like the time before.. Cole looked down at my lips and I looked down at his as we both looked in each others eyes again before going in. I felt Coles lips touch mine, I knew we were probably doing this out of anger, stress, and sadness, but I don't think either of us really cared in this moment we just needed a distraction. It started to get more intense, our lips in sync as Cole slowly pushed me down, he was over me when we heard the door creak open. 

"Oh my god." we heard a voice as we quickly broke a part, adrenaline pumping.

"Nathan!" I say with wide eyes but huge relief.

"What." Nathan seemed panicked.

"Nathan this isn't what it looks like we were just-"

"KISSING!" Nathan yelled when Cole quickly covered his mouth.

"It didn't mean anything" I said freaking out now, "We were just stressed, please don't tell Alex!"

"That you and his brother were making out on HIS bed??!" 

Cole just looked at his brother.

"I- I won't..if he doesn't ask."

"Thank you!" I go to hug Nathan when another face enters the room.

"What's going on here..?" Alex asked.

"Nothing!" We all three told him.

"I should get home." I quickly walked out but Alex stopped me.

"Are you okay?" he quietly asked, but I just nodded and gave him a little rub on the shoulder.

I left the house immediately.

I can't believe I just did that, that is NOT like me?? Alex can never find out.. I don't like Cole like that he's just like my best friend/crush's older brother.

I will never mention or do this AGAIN. 

I don't want to lose my person.