TW eating disorder, abuse
Jesse couldn't even put away the groceries he had bought, he needed a minute to think. He made his way over to the couch sitting down putting his hands on his face. He couldn't believe he really saw her again. She didn't look right though, she wasn't glowing and she looked so skinny. Her appearance was dull. What happened to his bright fun loving Angel? Worry started to take over. He was more than convinced now that she was being abused behind the scenes. He wanted to text her and ask if she was ok, but she seemed terrified when he said he'd call or text her later. He knew the reason but he didn't want to believe that she was in danger. He couldn't stop thinking about her. She's just so damn beautiful, from her ocean blue icy eyes to her perfect plump lips, her gorgeous smile, and so much more Billie is just... perfect! But seeing her body so neglected hurt him. The poor girl had struggled badly with an eating disorder awhile back when they were together. It was the toughest thing Jesse had ever seen. The countless nights of him fighting with her about eating and unfortunately having to resort to restraints and force feeding. It was a painful memory.
Flashback
It was another night of arguments for the young couple all because Billie was refusing to eat "B you have to eat baby" Jesse says to his stubborn girlfriend who was refusing to eat her dinner. She sat across the dinner table sobbing, she didn't want to eat. Jesse had watched her most of the day taking note of what she was consuming, which was practically nothing. He had a real problem when she wouldn't eat it pained him. The stubborn girl pushed her plate away and excused herself from the table Jesse wasn't having it, he hated seeing his girl starve herself and he couldn't take anymore.
He got up going after her. He hated to be forceful but she pushed him to that point. She yelled as he picked her up carrying her back over to the dinner table. "Stop Jesse! I'm not hungry!" she shouts. He ignored her even though it hurt him to do this. He put her in the chair holding her tightly as she fought to get up. "Stop it B" he said sternly. She didn't stop though she kept fighting her boyfriend. He finally had enough. He snatched her back up throwing her over his shoulder before walking to his room to grab rope. Billie saw him grab it and her eyes widened "NO JESSE NO!" She screamed kicking her legs frantically. He didn't care though. He walked back to their dining room forcing her back in the chair. This time Billie gave up and just sobbed while he tied her to the chair. "I promise I have the best intentions by doing this B it's not to hurt you" he says softly while grabbing her spoon. He scooped up some rice bringing it towards her mouth. She turned away refusing it. Jesse wasn't going to get mad though he would be patient with her. "Babygirl I don't think you understand the consequences of not eating, your body will weaken and you'll have no energy. Take a few bites at least, then you can get up" he explains. She sighed but opened her mouth letting him feed her. She was embarrassed that her boyfriend was feeding her like she was a baby or something. "Thank you B I'm so proud of you" he said unrestraining her from the chair. He immediately scooped her up into his arms holding and kissing her.
As time progressed Billie finally got over her fear and guilt when eating. She was finally healthy which helped heal her relationship with food. Jesse was never so proud of her.
His heart broke reliving those moments. He knew his poor ex girlfriend was going through it again and this time he wasn't there to help.
Billie laid in bed staring at the ceiling fan. She was still in pain for earlier but Matthew didn't stick around to comfort her. She was used to being alone a lot but it didn't make it hurt any less. She felt numb and worthless, how could someone think it's ok to rape their own significant other? She just wanted to be loved and cherished. She wanted to be someone's whole world, but she knew she was only a sex toy to Matthew. He would never respect her or love her like she wanted. Her eyes began getting heavy but she couldn't fall asleep not with the fear of nightmares. She had them almost every night mostly due to not having anyone to sleep with. Matthew punished her by making her sleep alone. She had so many restless nights making her life a living hell. She was so sleep deprived but how could she fix it when no one would help her. She couldn't take it she had to go see Jesse again even if it was a huge risk. Before she could leave Matthew came back. He scoffed at the sight of her. "You look fucking awful" he scolds. "I-I know, it's because I can't sleep" she whispers sadly. "Why the hell can you not sleep?" He spat. "I-I need to cuddle you" she says softly. He sighs, "whatever just get in bed" he says annoyed. She did just that curling up under the covers. He quickly joined her. "Go to sleep Billie I can't have you looking so horrible, I have an event tonight and you will be coming with me" he says. "C-Can you maybe caress my nose? It helps me sleep" she asks softly. He scoffs, "No! That's so fucking childish" he scolds. "O-Ok sorry" she replies.
She didn't think it was childish but Matthew liked to be an asshole to her. She cuddled up close to him then closed her eyes hoping for a good nap. Matthew didn't even attempt to cuddle her, he just played on his phone. "Why the fuck are you not asleep yet?" He spats. "S-Sorry I just can't fall asleep right now" she says softly. She wanted him to comfort her and let her know everything is ok, but he refused. "Go to fucking sleep! You're so fucking tired and so fucking sleep deprived right?" He growls. She closed her eyes but knew she wouldn't fall asleep she needed to feel relaxed and safe, she definitely never felt that way around Matthew. He finally gave in wrapping her in his embrace. She clung to him closing her eyes again. He was annoyed by it, he hated how clingy she was. But he decided to continue holding her. He knew she wouldn't sleep well without some sort of comfort and the last thing he wanted was for her to look miserable at his event. He didn't want anyone asking questions or suspecting anything, he had to seem perfect. But her sleeping didn't last long. She woke up sobbing and screaming. She had another terrible nightmare. Matthew was furious. "STOP FUCKING SCREAMING!" He yelled. She couldn't help it though her nightmares were awful. She couldn't stop freaking out so Matthew grabbed her by the throat choking her again until she passed out. She fought him until she couldn't anymore. He instantly regretted it. He let his anger get the best of him again. "God damnit" he cursed. "Billie wake up baby come on" he says with fear in his voice. He shook her but the poor girl remained unconscious. "Billie come on please wake up" he begs shaking her harder. He knew she would just have to wake up on her own. He picked up her limp body placing her back under the blankets before kissing her forehead. "Sorry Baby" he says softly.
Hours had went by and Billie hadn't woken up. The event for Matthew was soon and unfortunately his plus one would not be joining him but he feared that when she woke up she'd find a way to report him for hurting her. He immediately grabbed his handcuffs pulling Billies tiny wrists above her head locking her to the headboard. "I'm sorry baby girl" he says before leaving room. He wasn't sorry though, he never would be.
It was late at night when the poor blonde finally woke. She went to pull her arms down only to discover she was locked to the bed. She started panicking and pulling hard on her restraints. Then she remembered what had happened, Matthew strangled her again. She couldn't help but cry, why did he keep doing that to her? "M-MATTHEW" she shouted. But all she got was silence. She hoped by pulling on the cuffs they would break but all she was doing was creating more bruises. She whined even more for her boyfriend in hopes he would come in and free her, but her hope diminished. All she could do is curl up and go to sleep hoping he'd be home when she woke. She did her best to get comfortable before closing her eyes.
Matthew finally arrived home very late night. When he walked in the bedroom he saw his girlfriend had moved meaning she had woken up earlier. He gently undid the cuffs revealing dark bruises on her wrist, he realized she had been fighting the restraints. He also saw dark bruises on her neck right where he had strangled her. He felt a little guilty about it. He undressed himself before climbing in bed beside her. "Good night my love" he whispers. But there was no love, Matthew only wanted to make it seem like he loved her but in reality he just wanted something worth showing off.
