Wish You Could See Me (N.H Fanfiction)

Chapter 5

Quote: "But who would love a depressed girl?"

Brooke's POV
I sat on the wooden bench that was up against the wall. I leant my head against the cold glass window watching the little drops of the rain plop onto the other side of the window and slowly drift down until it hit the ground. Carter was sitting across from me her eyebrows were scrunched up in confusion of the story I told her about with Niall last night. When I got home last night a huge smile never left my face because of the best night I have had in a while. I feel like he's one of those guys that will protect you from anything. But I also feel like he will break my heart because of all the attraction he gets with other girls. Literally he's like a magnet and is drawing them towards him.

"So let me get this straight. He asked for your number but you didn't give it to him?" I shook my head no.

"Are you nuts?! That's Niall fucking Horan! Why wouldn't you give him your phone number. He likes you Brooke I can tell." I turned my head towards her and looked her deep in the eyes.

"That's the problem! I don't want him to like me. Well, I do and I don't. I don't know if he will hurt me Carter. He doesn't know my past and he will if we keep up with whatever we are. Plus he could have any girl in the world. Why would he want someone like me who always hides from people and doesn't talk much and gets abused for doing absolutely nothing! I want to be friends with him that's it. Just friends." I lied.

"I can tell your lying. You don't want to be with him because your afraid your gonna fall in love with a boy who is in the biggest boyband in the world. Also, your beautiful Brooke. If I could look like anyone, I would want to look like you. Your just not confident to face your fear of not being who you are. I know how you really are Brooke. Your a nice and innocent girl like me but ever since the stuff between you parents and other stuff that's been happening, you became dark and so depressed. Yeah he doesn't know about your past, but you could have a fresh start with him. You can tell him that you and your family are nice and kind and just positive things. You can live a second life. You can start over with yourself. You just need to give it a chance." She's right. I am afraid. I'm afraid that because If I'm with him he's gonna hurt me like everyone does to me. What if he finds out about my past? What if the fans hate me and they try and kill me? This is exactly why I don't do this relationship shit.

"Maybe your right or maybe your wrong, but I just want to be friends with him. Nothing is going to happen between Niall and I." I confirmed and turned my head back to lean against the window.

"Whatever you say" she teased looking out the window as well.

I sighed and got up, I went on my phone to Twitter and stopped dead in my tracks to the tweet that is all over the web.

"I'm looking for this girl. Please if anyone knows who she is and were she is. That would be great thanks !" It was from Niall. And attached to that tweet was a picture of me in the dress I wore for the party that I posted on Twitter before I left. Oh dear god I'm panicking again.

"Carter" I slowly said turning slowly towards her.

"Yeah?" She turned her head towards me. I showed her the tweet and her eyes went wide.

"This guy is really crushing on you Brooke. Give him a chance. You'll break his little heart." She said in puppy eyes. Oh hell no.

"Nope. And you better not say anything about where I am or else I swear to god I will break every bone in your body." I said sternly. She nodded her head quickly her eyes still wide.

"Good" I smiled turning on the heels of my feet and walking into the kitchen.

Niall's POV
"What were you thinking?!" Liam yelled at me pacing back and forth across the room. This is obviously about the girl that I can't seem to get out of my head. I had the best night of my life last night because of her. I was really hoping I could get her to somehow fall for me as much as I'm falling for her but I guess my luck wasn't working last night.

"Your gonna get us all in trouble Niall! What were you thinking?" He continued to yell at me. I just sat there on the leather couch just ignoring his comments and thinking about the girl. Brooke.

"Are you listening to me?!" He snapped his fingers in my face to get my attention which it did.

"Yeah ok listening." I mumbled a little annoyed that he kept interrupting my thoughts of her.

"Management is gonna be pissed at us! Especially you," he pointed to me. "We could get fired Niall! Management made it specifically clear that you should not date anyone at the moment. And now that you posted all over the Internet that you finding this specific girl, everyone is gonna track down the poor girl and is gonna get hate!"

"I get it! If they get mad and they call, I'll go down there and explain everything." I confirmed for him and he just gave me a nod.

"Don't drag us into this. I don't want to get into any trouble with management." He said after a while. Then walked out of the room.

I really hope I find this girl soon.