My parents are back. I cannot figure out why I am so happy about this. Im tired and lazy. Now, im happy. They're not even happy with me. They have never really cared about me. Ever since they had the miscarriage, they changed. I remember the day we got our first pet. It was a guinea pig. Her name was Cloudy. She was really fluffy. I mean, why would i name her cloudy if she was not fluffy? Exactly, I would not. I remember the day Cloudy escaped. Guess who did not care? My parents. They knew what she meant to me. At least, I think they did...
I was in science today. My whole vision just.. disappeared. It was weird. It felt like the whole world collapsed. My head fell right on to my desk. I could hear the laughs from behind me, from everywhere. Even while blacked out. I cannot really remember what i saw. I think it was a person. They seemed familiar but i know that they are not. Everyone thought i was asleep. Maybe that's why they were laughing. Was it?
I am definitely overthinking. I probably just looked weird. Funny, I guess. Or everybody just hates me. I did nothing wrong to anyone. All the laughs are at me, not with me. I can tell. Even when I cannot see. Which is not very good, because it most likely means that everyone does hate me. Who cares if people hate me? Maybe they care about whats going on with me, but I do not care. It looks like my parents do not care either. See? No one around me cares. Besides.. alot of people. Thats against my point, though.
I still feel weird about my parents. Why am i happy that they are home? I really do not know. I have so many missing assignments for school. I have the worst grades EVER. Is that why they do not pay attention to me? Maybe it is, maybe it is not. It most likely is the reason. But, really, nobody knows. Well, besides my parents.
I always overthink. I always tell myself im gonna do good in life. I never have. Ask my parents. They will tell you. Im a failure. My grades are, too. I guess you could just say my whole life is. I mean, it is not a lie. I can never do anything right. I still can not believe what happend at school today. After it all happend, I had the worst headaches. Even when i woke up, i could feel the laughing. It made my stomach tremble. I felt sick. And this will most likely happen again. Which I hope it does not, I am tired of this feeling. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.
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It's All an Illusion
Mystery / ThrillerHeres Zaniyah. Everyone calls her the "weird girl". Only because she blacks out. And, sees some.. stuff. Needless to say, I guess she is weird. No one notices her. Her so called "friends" are always ignoring her. Shes not very, social, i guess you c...