It's All an Illusion

Weekend

It is the weekend now. Finally. I can not stand school any more. I just wish we never had school. I wish I was gone. Thank god it is the weekend, I could have been in 6th period right now. The worst class. I woke up today and, basically fell right back asleep. But I woke up fast. I guess I have just blacked out again. I do not know what is going on. Is my mind tricking me? Maybe.

My parents have actually talked to me. Pretty surprising, isn't it? Not really. All they actually cared about was how I keep blacking out. And that is only because my teacher just had to call them. They do not care about my mental health, not anything else. They have not even asked me how I am doing. Crazy, right?  It does not even bother me. But i guess I am always bothering them. They never really seemed to care about me. Well, before they did. Now, it is pretty obvious that they do not.

          It is almost Halloween. Well, for every one else. Not me. I am not dressing up in a stupid costume for one day. I won't even use it again, so what is the point? There is no reason. I genuinely can not believe people actually waste money on a costume they most likely won't wear ever again. Unless they are weird, who wears a halloween costume in the middle of the year? If someone does, tell them that they definitely won't be talking to me. Ever. Unless I grow to be weird.

I guess you can say that I am weird. But not "that" weird. Anyways, I still haven't figured out what is going on with me. I only have a day left until school starts again. I wish I just wasn't here. No one would care. I bet no one would even notice. I started therapy. I wish i didn't, it was a waste of money. They ask me the same stuff every time. Plus, the stuff they say is worthless. Ive tried a million things, and not one thing that they said has helped me with anything. I just want to be gone.