DYSTYCHIPHOBIA

PART 3

Pawin went back to his dorm and rested in his bed. Before that, he ate some medicine to cure his trembling. Lucky for him, he doesn't have any roommates for these two semesters. He sighs and rests himself comfortably.

I was walking in the endless jungle. Only my footsteps and nature are sounding. The rocky path is full of creeping plants and hidden traps. I kept on running as I was like being chased by something. But then my mind went black.
Haa....haa....haa
My breath becomes heavy as I open my eyes. The sight in front of me was unknown yet it seemed familiar . That two floor house, that garden , that yard...where did I see this before?

I looked around the house.
" No.20, 3D5H+K99, Nong Bua, Mueang Kanchanaburi District, Kanchanaburi 71190, Thailand. "
I was taken aback. My whole body is in shock and started trembling... I know this place. I took a cautious step back. I don't want to know about this place...I wanna go. I already had a hard time breathing but still managed to control it.
I'm ready to run away from this place but when I was about to turn back, the voice of a boy caught my ears.

" Ha..he...ha..he...yeay! I catch it ! "
That boy laughing happily after catching a beautiful butterfly. That boy looked so happy but not for me. Only if that boy knew what's gonna happen, he wouldn't be happy like that. Yes...yes , I knew what would happen because that boy is me. My breath is getting heavier. My hand is also sweaty. Suddenly, that boy said something. I looked at that boy as he ran off into the house. Please let me run away too...please .

I'm out of my breath to control it any longer. I tried to move my feet but it won't move. I was stucked there.
Haa...haa...haaa
My breath is out of control as I was trying to move with a fear heart. But it was late already..I heard a car entering the house yard. It was my father's car. I watched closed as he headed into the house.

I was afraid but still followed him from behind...it's like someone was controlling my feet to walk into the house. As soon as my feet touch the house floor, everything happen as it is. I saw what I saw as a kid but this time, I saw myself hiding behind the kitchen wall. That boy looked so scared so am I.

I want to head over that boy but me ,myself is still in trauma about it. I heard my parents fight like I heard it as a kid and that makes me terrified. My hands and feet started shaking. My body sinked to the floor due to heavy trauma. Sweats are all over me. I screamed in terrified. But the scenes in front of me doesn't hear it. It keeps going on till I'm trembling hard that I can't even move any inch of my body. I let out a heavy scream.

" Meung...!! Aii meung..!! Are you okay? " Someone wakes Pawin up from his nightmares. It looked very worried of Pawin. It doesn't know what happened to Pawin that his body is in full sweat.

Pawin in the other hand was in deep realization. He was sweating his pyjamas. Even more, he was surprised someone was in his room. As he remembers,he already locked the doors.
" Who are you? And why are you in my room ? " Pawin asked in politeness as he was afraid he would say something he shouldn't. His emotions are still lingering.
" I'm Marc..Marc Natarit Sittawat. You're roommates for two semesters. " Marc introduce himself so Pawin wouldn't think bad of him.
" But I thought they say I didn't have any roommates." Pawin ask as he confused.
" Well..I'm an exchange student from other university. " Marc answered then asked if he was really okay.
" I'm okay " Pawin was already annoyed but he kept it quiet. He wants Marc to stop bothering him or he might burst out real soon. He doesn't like to be messed with when he's emotional but people never cared about it because of his soft personality.
" Are you really okay? " Marc asked again not knowing Pawin's boiling heart.
" How many times do I tell you that I'm okay !!? I'm OKAY!! " Pawin raised his tone.
" Are you angry ?! I was just asking if you're okay.. that's it. " Marc also talked back as he's the person who's red headed too.
" Yes.. I'm angry! You're annoying me " Pawin raised his tone higher.
" Huh... I'm annoying??! Now you blame it on me?! I'm the one who wakes you up..if I knew it would be like this, I'll just let you there! " Marc raised his tone higher than Pawin.

After hearing the word 'blame', Pawin immediately gets deja vu. He realizes his words might hurt the other party. He looked at the angry Marc with a guilty feeling.
" Sorry....I didn't mean that. I'm really sorry " Pawin immediately apologized. His body started getting symptoms of his phobia again.
" What!? You just called me annoying and apologized ?! No one ever called me annoying before! " Angry Marc leaves the room with a hot heart. Meanwhile Pawin hears those words that make him have trouble breathing and his body is trembling. He tried to chase and apologized to Marc but Marc is already gone.
" What have I done? " Pawin asked himself .
" I'm a fool " He looked at his trembling hands and put it in his hand to make him relaxed but that didn't work. He's still trembling . He'll feel guilty until Marc forgives him. He doesn't know what to do. He messed up bad this time.