DYSTYCHIPHOBIA

PART 7

In the doctor's room, Pawin sat in front of the doctor while Marc was sitting beside him. Doctor Chana examines Pawin and asks if Pawin has eaten any medication specified by the medical expert. He also told Pawin to cooperate because this is important .

Pawin hesitated to answer because Marc was beside him but he had to answer it . He sighs making Marc curious.
" Win... The doctor is waiting for your answer. Answer it " Marc told Pawin.
" Ohh.. it's okay. That your time " Doctor Chana wants to give Pawin time as it is personal information.

Pawin sighs again. This time he couldn't get away whether he's lying or not, it's still the same.
" I've eaten a pill prescription by a doctor. It's for my anxiety and trembling symptoms. Also some pills for relaxing support. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. " Pawin confessed.
" And at that time, my body weakened because of heavy pressure on my body. My medicine also has run out. That's why I fainted " He added.
" Well..there must be a reason why that happened??? " Doctor Chana asking for more information.
" Uhhhh.. " Pawin hesitated. He looked at Marc. Marc saw that Pawin was looking at him.
" Why are you looking at me ? " He murmured to Pawin.

Pawin is gathering some strength to speak up as he's really nervous. The symptoms are just waiting to come out again. He sighs again. Finally, he mustered up his courage and didn't waste any time to blurred out what was on his mind.
" I have a phobia. DYSTYCHIPHOBIA - Fear of Hurting Others. I gained this phobia since I was little. I can never turn down any request because I was that they would be hurt by me. I was very careful with my words. If I accidentally did that, my symptoms would become heavier until that person is fine. The doctor that treated me said that this phobia isn't good for someone who has a soft heart like me. It'll become a bad end and hurt me in silence. " Pawin said and avoided eye contact with Marc and Doctor Chana. He looked down to the floor. Afraid to put his head up.

Marc on the other side was really shocked. He didn't expect Pawin was like that.
" That's why he's like that to me,right? " He says to himself in low tone to not make Pawin hear that.
" Okay... Thank you for your cooperation. I'll tell the nurses to prepare your medicine. And you're already discharged." Doctor Chana smiled while he said that.
" Okay....uhh.. Doctor Chana, can you not tell this to my family? I didn't want them to know..na ?? " Pawin made a request to the doctor. He was afraid his parents would know. It's better if his parents don't know.
" It's fine.. Mr Thanik. I wouldn't tell them " Doctor Chana answered.
" Khop Khun na ... Doctor " Pawin thanked the doctor. They leave the room in silence.

Pawin's friend who was waiting outside immediately gathered around them asking for an explanation. Pawin was still in discomfort and told Marc to explain to them while he was going to the toilet.
" Marc, you tell them. I wanna go to the toilet. " Pawin leave them.
" Okay.. " Marc answered. In his mind,he was thinking to see Pawin after explaining to the four of them.

The four of them are confused but are still looking at Marc waiting for an explanation.
" So, what's the doctor said?? " Satang is the first one to ask.
" Is he okay? " Khaotung continued.
" Did he get discharged? " Then First ask.
" Are you Win's faen lor? " Followed by Winny. All of them looked at Winny with unbearable facial expressions then laughed slowly. Leaving Winny very confused why they are laughing.
" Oho... one by one,can you? Yes!! The doctor said he's fine. He's already discharged. " Marc explained to them but purposely didn't answer the last question. All of them sigh in relief except for Winny.
" Ai Marc ! You didn't answer my question yet!? Are you Win's faen? " Winny angrily sulking at Marc. Satang quickly covers his faen mouth as he's embarrassed by him. Marc just laughed it off.
" If I said yes, why would you do ? " Marc smirks then leaves them to go to the toilet to see Pawin's condition.
" What ???! " Winny, Satang, First and Khaotung were shocked by his words and looked at each other confused.

At the toilet, Pawin clearly had red eyes from crying. He was flabbergasted... He doesn't know how to confront Marc now. He's also afraid... What's Marc thinks of him? He sighs heavily letting go of his thoughts. He quickly swipe off his tears and smile to hide his sorrow.

When he's about to pull on the toilet door, Marc was already standing in front of him..feeling worried. He's surprised but kept a straight face. To his shock, Marc started hugging him.
" It's tiring,right? To lift all of that burden on your back alone. You're tired but no one ever cares. Not even your parents. It's heavy but you still carry it anyway without getting others hurt while you're the one getting hurted. I know you're in a hard time. I know how painful it is to weigh it. I know... " Marc comforts Pawin as he knew Pawin was having a hard time.
" So, at this time, this moment...I want you to let go of all your feelings. I know you're hiding it well enough. I'm here to comfort you. You've done it well. I'm proud of you. But this time, let me be an ears for you. " Marc patted Pawin's back slowly.
" It's okay..you can let it go... " Marc continue his sentence.

Pawin senses a comfort in Marc words. He's touched..no one ever comfort him this way. Marc's right..he's very tired...tired of everything. His eyes get teary but he didn't wanna cry. He's already cried enough.
In the end, he failed. His tears overflowed in his eyes and started tearing down. He hugged Marc even tighter. He's too tired to faced this alone. He just want to stay in the moment. The moment he bursted out. His tears fall even harder.
" I'm tired, Marc. I'm really tired... " Pawin wants to bury his face in Marc shoulder but he's a short person so it went to Marc chest instead. Marc returned Pawin's hug tighter. He knew Pawin needed it the most at this time. They were like that for a long time.